Queen of Wands

Holy Highest Pay Out Ever!

2010-04-22T19:16:00.000-07:00

It was the largest one-year payout in the history of the financial markets.

As quoted from the October 31, 2009 "Wall Street Journal Book Review" online article by Gary Zuckerman, "[John] Paulson's personal cut [of his hedge fund trading in 2007] would amount to nearly $4 billion, or more than $10 million a day. That was more than the 2007 earnings of J. K. Rowling, Oprah Winfrey and Tiger Woods put together. At one point in late 2007, a broker called to remind Mr. Paulson of a personal account worth $5 million, an account now so insignificant it had slipped his mind...."

Who is this man and what can we find that's unusual in his chart?

John Paulson is a Harvard MBA who worked for awhile at Bear Stearns and other places. He founded his own hedge fund firm in 1994. Just 51 as this is being written, he is #45 on the Forbes list of the world's wealthiest billionaires. He recently donated $20 million to New York University's Stern School of Business.

The stock market is essentially glorified gambling and Paulson has two indicators of being a high risk taker, Saturn in Scorpio and Jupiter conjunct Pluto. Saturn in Scorpio operates positively for brinksmanship giving nerves of steel. Jupiter conjunct Pluto operates positively if the event is just astronomical in size or importance. In gambling terminology it signals a potential windfall! In business it represents the Midas touch. Jupiter, Sagittarius and Pluto symbolize a black hole in the financial market as the housing sector collapsed.

Pluto was also in the process of passing over Paulson's late degree Sagittarian Stellium which is trine his natal Pluto. In recent years transiting Pluto had crossed his Sun and Moon and during 2007 was on his natal Merury at 27 degrees Sag. This could make him lucky enough to have that offhand conversation with his assistant (the one who predicted the housing market was 40% inflated and who later got the $43m bonus).

Not to say this could have happened to just anyone but a large factor of Sagittarius' luck is good timing. Articles about Paulson tend to attribute this gargantuan profiteering to "superb timing". Perhaps because these Jupiter ruled Sagittarians are open to opportunities, they just seem to fall into them!

The biggest indicator of this type of wealth, however, is very simple ... the Sagittarian Moon. Aristotle Onassis, Donald Trump, Ivana Trump, Howard Hughes and Warren Buffett all have Moon in Sagittarius.

On Natural Disasters

2010-01-14T12:49:00.000-08:00

Voltaire: Poem on the Lisbon Disaster,
or An Examination of the Axiom “All Is Well”
(Translated by Joseph McCabe, 1912)

This famous poem was written by Voltaire in response to the 1759 Lisbon earthquake, an event which shocked European society, and challenged the purely optimistic mindset of 18th Century Deism. It was likely well known by the Founders & Framers.

Unhappy mortals! Dark and mourning earth!
Affrighted gathering of human kind!
Eternal lingering of useless pain!
Come, ye philosophers, who cry, “All’s well,”
And contemplate this ruin of a world.
Behold these shreds and cinders of your race,
This child and mother heaped in common wreck,
These scattered limbs beneath the marble shafts—
A hundred thousand whom the earth devours,
Who, torn and bloody, palpitating yet,
Entombed beneath their hospitable roofs,
In racking torment end their stricken lives.
To those expiring murmurs of distress,
To that appalling spectacle of woe,
Will ye reply: “You do but illustrate
The iron laws that chain the will of God”?
Say ye, o’er that yet quivering mass of flesh:
“God is avenged: the wage of sin is death”?
What crime, what sin, had those young hearts conceived
That lie, bleeding and torn, on mother’s breast?
Did fallen Lisbon deeper drink of vice
Than London, Paris, or sunlit Madrid?
In these men dance; at Lisbon yawns the abyss.
Tranquil spectators of your brothers’ wreck,
Unmoved by this repellent dance of death,
Who calmly seek the reason of such storms,
Let them but lash your own security;
Your tears will mingle freely with the flood.
When earth its horrid jaws half open shows,
My plaint is innocent, my cries are just.
Surrounded by such cruelties of fate,
By rage of evil and by snares of death,
Fronting the fierceness of the elements,
Sharing our ills, indulge me my lament.
“’T is pride,” ye say—“the pride of rebel heart,
To think we might fare better than we do.”
Go, tell it to the Tagus’ stricken banks;
Search in the ruins of that bloody shock;
Ask of the dying in that house of grief,
Whether ’t is pride that calls on heaven for help
And pity for the sufferings of men.
“All’s well,” ye say, “and all is necessary.”
Think ye this universe had been the worse
Without this hellish gulf in Portugal?
Are ye so sure the great eternal cause,
That knows all things, and for itself creates,
Could not have placed us in this dreary clime
Without volcanoes seething ’neath our feet?
Set you this limit to the power supreme?
Would you forbid it use its clemency?
Are not the means of the great artisan
Unlimited for shaping his designs?
The master I would not offend, yet wish
This gulf of fire and sulphur had outpoured
Its baleful flood amid the desert wastes.
God I respect, yet love the universe.
Not pride, alas, it is, but love of man,
To mourn so terrible a stroke as this.

Would it console the sad inhabitants
Of these aflame and desolated shores
To say to them: “Lay down your lives in peace;
For the world’s good your homes are sacrificed;
Your ruined palaces shall others build,
For other peoples shall your walls arise;
The North grows rich on your unhappy loss;
Your ills are but a link in general law;
To God you are as those low creeping worms
That wait for you in your predestined tombs”?
What speech to hold to victims of such ruth!
Add not such cruel outrage to their pain.

Nay, press not on my agitated heart
These iron and irrevocable laws,
This rigid chain of bodies, minds, and worlds.
Dreams of the bloodless thinker are such thoughts.
God holds the chain: is not himself enchained;
By his indulgent choice is all arranged;
Implacable he’s not, but free and just.

Why suffer we, then, under one so just?1
There is the knot your thinkers should undo.
Think ye to cure our ills denying them?
All peoples, trembling at the hand of God,
Have sought the source of evil in the world.
When the eternal law that all things moves
Doth hurl the rock by impact of the winds,
With lightning rends and fires the sturdy oak,
They have no feeling of the crashing blows;
But I, I live and feel, my wounded heart
Appeals for aid to him who fashioned it.

Children of that Almighty Power, we stretch
Our hands in grief towards our common sire.
The vessel, truly, is not heard to say:
“Why should I be so vile, so coarse, so frail?”
Nor speech nor thought is given unto it.
The urn that, from the potter’s forming hand,
Slips and is shattered has no living heart
That yearns for bliss and shrinks from misery.
“This misery,” ye say, “is others’ good.”
Yes; from my mouldering body shall be born
A thousand worms, when death has closed my pain.
Fine consolation this in my distress!
Grim speculators on the woes of men,
Ye double, not assuage, my misery.
In you I mark the nerveless boast of pride
That hides its ill with pretext of content.

I am a puny part of the great whole.
Yes; but all animals condemned to live,
All sentient things, born by the same stern law,
Suffer like me, and like me also die.

The vulture fastens on his timid prey,
And stabs with bloody beak the quivering limbs:
All ’s well, it seems, for it. But in a while
An eagle tears the vulture into shreds;
The eagle is transfixed by shaft of man;
The man, prone in the dust of battlefield,
Mingling his blood with dying fellow-men,
Becomes in turn the food of ravenous birds.
Thus the whole world in every member groans:
All born for torment and for mutual death.
And o’er this ghastly chaos you would say
The ills of each make up the good of all!
What blessedness! And as, with quaking voice,
Mortal and pitiful, ye cry, “All ’s well,”
The universe belies you, and your heart
Refutes a hundred times your mind’s conceit.

All dead and living things are locked in strife.
Confess it freely—evil stalks the land,
Its secret principle unknown to us.
Can it be from the author of all good?
Are we condemned to weep by tyrant law
Of black Typhon or barbarous Ahriman?1
These odious monsters, whom a trembling world
Made gods, my spirit utterly rejects.

But how conceive a God supremely good,
Who heaps his favours on the sons he loves,
Yet scatters evil with as large a hand?
What eye can pierce the depth of his designs?
From that all-perfect Being came not ill:
And came it from no other, for he’s lord:
Yet it exists. O stern and numbing truth!
O wondrous mingling of diversities!
A God came down to lift our stricken race:
He visited the earth, and changed it not!
One sophist says he had not power to change;
“He had,” another cries, “but willed it not:
In time he will, no doubt.” And, while they prate,
The hidden thunders, belched from underground,
Fling wide the ruins of a hundred towns
Across the smiling face of Portugal.
God either smites the inborn guilt of man,
Or, arbitrary lord of space and time,
Devoid alike of pity and of wrath,
Pursues the cold designs he has conceived.
Or else this formless stuff, recalcitrant,
Bears in itself inalienable faults;
Or else God tries us, and this mortal life
Is but the passage to eternal spheres.
’T is transitory pain we suffer here,
And death its merciful deliverance.
Yet, when this dreadful passage has been made,
Who will contend he has deserved the crown?
Whatever side we take we needs must groan;
We nothing know, and everything must fear.
Nature is dumb, in vain appeal to it;
The human race demands a word of God.
’T is his alone to illustrate his work,
Console the weary, and illume the wise.
Without him man, to doubt and error doomed,
Finds not a reed that he may lean upon.
From Leibnitz learn we not by what unseen
Bonds, in this best of all imagined worlds,
Endless disorder, chaos of distress,
Must mix our little pleasures thus with pain;
Nor why the guiltless suffer all this woe
In common with the most abhorrent guilt.
’Tis mockery to tell me all is well.
Like learned doctors, nothing do I know.
Plato has said that men did once have wings
And bodies proof against all mortal ill;
That pain and death were strangers to their world.
How have we fallen from that high estate!
Man crawls and dies: all is but born to die:
The world ’s the empire of destructiveness.
This frail construction of quick nerves and bones
Cannot sustain the shock of elements;
This temporary blend of blood and dust
Was put together only to dissolve;
This prompt and vivid sentiment of nerve
Was made for pain, the minister of death:
Thus in my ear does nature’s message run.
Plato and Epicurus I reject,
And turn more hopefully to learned Bayle.
With even poised scale Bayle bids me doubt.
He, wise and great enough to need no creed,
Has slain all systems—combats even himself:
Like that blind conqueror of Philistines,

He sinks beneath the ruin he has wrought.1
What is the verdict of the vastest mind?
Silence: the book of fate is closed to us.
Man is a stranger to his own research;
He knows not whence he comes, nor whither goes.
Tormented atoms in a bed of mud,
Devoured by death, a mockery of fate.
But thinking atoms, whose far-seeing eyes,
Guided by thought, have measured the faint stars,
Our being mingles with the infinite;
Ourselves we never see, or come to know.
This world, this theatre of pride and wrong,
Swarms with sick fools who talk of happiness.
With plaints and groans they follow up the quest,
To die reluctant, or be born again.
At fitful moments in our pain-racked life
The hand of pleasure wipes away our tears;
But pleasure passes like a fleeting shade,
And leaves a legacy of pain and loss.
The past for us is but a fond regret,
The present grim, unless the future’s clear.
If thought must end in darkness of the tomb,
All will be well one day—so runs our hope.
All now is well, is but an idle dream.
The wise deceive me: God alone is right.
With lowly sighing, subject in my pain,
I do not fling myself ’gainst Providence.
Once did I sing, in less lugubrious tone,
The sunny ways of pleasure’s genial rule;
The times have changed, and, taught by growing age,
And sharing of the frailty of mankind,
Seeking a light amid the deepening gloom,
I can but suffer, and will not repine.

A caliph once, when his last hour had come,
This prayer addressed to him he reverenced:
“To thee, sole and all-powerful king, I bear
What thou dost lack in thy immensity –
Evil and ignorance, distress and sin.”
He might have added one thing further—hope.

January 15, 2910 Lunar Elipse Interpreted

2010-01-14T12:06:00.000-08:00

Today’s Lunar Eclipse takes place with the New Moon in Capricorn conjunct Pluto, pretty dark energy. It was anticipated, as eclipses usually are, by the tragic earthquake in Haiti and talk about Haiti’s “pact with the Devil”, a right wing religious myth that has perpetuated since Haiti’s emancipation from the French and relative to its condition compared to the neighboring Dominican Republic.

It need not necessarily mean 6 months of dark events. Here are some positive interpretations of ways to use this energy. The influence of an eclipse lasts until the next one. They are about 6 months apart. The word is “influence”. Though scary to witness, lending themselves to medieval reaction, eclipses are more like more stock to a soup bases.

Aries: transform your relationship with your father and the establishment, possible through legal matters

Taurus: transform your ability to give to others possibly through being forced

Gemini: transform your ability to relate to the simple truth of a matter possibly through something that it is written to you

Cancer: transform your ability to take care of yourself possibly through the failure of others to carry through on their end of the bargain

Leo: transform your ability to focus on day-to-day mundane matters perhaps through the efforts of someone who’s tired of all the melodrama

Virgo: get a promotion or recognition about your work, possibly through the truth coming to light how much you do and others don’t

Libra: transform your life by changes to your home, possibly a move, a new relationship or Feng Shui

Scorpio: transform your life by speaking up for yourself using a well reasoned argument

Sagittarius: transform your financial situation – something you’d completely forgotten about (lucky you!)

Capricorn: slowly begin the long series of changes that await you in the years ahead

Aquarius: transformation through visitations from the past

Pisces: the beginning of a very spiritual year with renewed vision and spirituality

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Change

2009-12-29T21:38:00.000-08:00

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New Year's Reading 2010

2009-12-28T01:21:00.000-08:00

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George Clooney

2009-12-26T23:53:00.000-08:00

Tiger Woods and Pluto into Capricorn ... and YOU!

2009-12-18T16:26:00.000-08:00

Tag Hueuer has now distanced itself from Tiger WOods. We see business acting as a moral force. It's the GREAT thing about business and with Pluto going in to Capricorn it's time to come of age - just like war spawns all sorts of very valuable medical and technical advances, business brings a certain type of backwoods equity, i.e., if you can afford to pay x amount I will sell it to you regardless of r c or c.

Pluto is firmly in Capricorn now. If you ever doubted the undermining power of this planet look at what happened to Tiger Woods’ life in just a few days. Tiger Woods has his Sun in Capricorn.

The same thing is going on with our own individual social and familial structures. We may not all by any means be living double lives but somehow it is possible to drift into bad territory and get stuck there, like with a long marriage or family dynamic that has become quite toxic. If so, this will probably be the worst holiday season you’ve ever had and the toxicity of your relationships may become just too deadly to ignore any longer. That’s Pluto at work.

Very many of you are absolutely at your wit’s end, knowing you simply cannot bear the status quo a minute longer .

This is Pluto at work. My advice is to take a good look at all of it and say goodbye, knowing you’ve tried your hardest (probably since 1982). Then prepare to act on your discovery in 2010. Prepare to see it all fall apart or fall away to reveal a better place for you, a better relationship or relationships. This is Pluto ending the 1982-2009 cycle and starting a brand new one.

It certainly will help to get a Tarot or astrology reading and I’m here working all during December and January.

Nancy Fenn's Sympathetic Other Woman Survey

2009-12-09T00:59:00.000-08:00

age =: 30

name for married lover: Darryl

make up a name for you: Stephanie

how did your relationship get started =: In 1998, Darryl and I met as we were neighbors. I moved shortly afterwards and we lost touch. Four years later, he and I reconnected. I heard that he had gotten married, but I was never interested in dating him. When we met to have dinner (as friends), he informed me that he was seperated and living at home with his parents. We then started to spend all of our time together. Since he is a truck driver, he was often gone for about two weeks at a time. We became so close that he was pratically living at my house. About 4 months into our relationship, I started receiving phone calls from what I thought was his ex-wife. His wife and I ended up meeting and told me that they were very much together. After my meeting with her, I met up with him and ended the relationship. I moved and changed my telephone number. I didn't see or talk to him for five years. I was checking my MySpace account and received a note from one of our mutual friends a!
dvising me that Darryl wanted me to call him. I didn't respond to the note. Then, Darryl created his own MySpace page and reached out to me and told me that it was important. After five years of not speaking/seeing each other, I figured something must have been wrong. When I contacted him, he told me that for the past five years, I was all he thought about and that he had been in love with me the entire time. He also stated that he wanted to reconcile and eventually marry. I asked about his marital status and he stated that he was still married, but was not happy and wanted to divorce. I told him if this was the case, he should take care of that situation prior to being involved with me. I extended friendship and we remain friends. This year (June 09# I had been dealing with being unemployed since December 08. Times were extremely difficult for me. Darryl came into town #I live in No. VA) and stayed for two weeks. We spent every day together and we both realized that we cou!
ld no longer remain friends. I told him that I was still in love with him, but I could not entertain a friendship with him as it was extremely difficult to keep it platonic. When I told him this, he begged me to be a part of his life and to give him an opportunity to change his marital status. Reluctantly, I agreed.

how long did it last =: From June 2009 to November 2009.

how did it end =: After giving him four opportunities to seperate from his wife and him not making good on his word, I figured he was lying. The only way I could have found out the truth was to talk to her. I called her and advised her what was going on. Now she is saying I was trying to destroy her marriage.

would you do it again = : I love Darryl very much, but when his wife asked him if he loved me, he told her no. Aside from this, he had a baby outside of their marriage. He has known about the 6 year old child for 3 years and neglected to tell his wife. Based on his character, I will never be able to trust him. Even if he divorces, I do not see a future between him and I.

never done this before =: No. I knew he had had an affair outside of his marriage before. This was the second time we were together. Although the first time, I did not know he was still married. He has confided in me that he has had two additional affairs outside of his relationship with me.

did he have any kids =: He has three children. Two children with his wife. Well, I just recently found out that the 6 year old child he thought belonged to him, is not. He has two children with his wife. WHen I asked why he hadn't divorced during the time we were apart, he stated that he only stayed married because of his children.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: I did not "know" his wife. However, we did meet the first time Darryl and I were together. I didn't get to know her, but from our conversation 7 years ago, she was very kind and pleasant.

did you ever contact his wife = : This past November, I reached out to her because I felt he was lying to me about his marriage. He was telling me that he was very unhappy, that he never loved her, and that he only married her because she was pregnant. He stated that he hadn't left because of the children and because he really had no incentive to leave. He said when I gave him a second chance, he was going to make the step to seperate from her because I was the woman he loved. The fourth time I gave him the opportunity to take care of the situation, he told me it was hard because he didn't want to leave her in a bad situation with the kids. I thought the excuse was just an excuse and felt he was lying to me. The only way I would know the truth would be to contact her. When I contacted her, I told her the truth. I also told her the reasons behind me advising her of our affair. I honestly had no hopes that she would walk away and leave. I just needed a resolution to this issue!
. Being that I am a believer in Christ, I was extremely uncomfortable with the situation. I wanted to handle this properly without causing this woman grief. She accepted what I said, but later, accused me of trying to destroy her marriage. Which totally isn't the case. To prove what I told her and that I did not pursue her husband, I sent her surveys he and I did, which were handwritten by the both of us. I still feel it was the right choice to contact her because my heart was in the right place. I wanted to know the truth and I got the truth. Since that day, I have not reached out to him or her. If I were trying to destroy her marriage, I would still be in the picture. I wouldn't have told her to begin with.

spend a lot of money on you =: He didn't spend a lot of money on me. We went to dinner occasionally, but that is about it.

what did he promise you =: He promised me that he would leave. That is the only promise he made me. He told me often how much he loved me, that he wanted to have children with me, and that he wanted to marry me. He met my parents and friends. He intorduced to me to his friends. He incorporated me into his life as though he wasn't married.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: I wanted to marry him. I pressed him to seperate because I was uncomfortable dating a man who was married. Our relationship was never an "affair" (my though prior to me finding out the truth). He reached out to me and was telling me that he wanted to divorce her. It was under that pretense that I gave him a second chance. It was never I am with you just to be with you. It was I am with you because you are the woman I love. He often referred to me as his soul mate and second wife to his friends.

are you still in contact with him = : I am not. We broke up on November 9th, 09.

did you have an abortion or a child =: No children and no abortion.

did you date others =: I did not.

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : I would advise them to wait until the marriage is over. It only breeds pain and drama. Men will do anything to have their cake and eat it too. That includes them telling you they love you.

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: Do not blame the other woman. You never know what your husband has told her. There are women out there who truly have desires to destroy your marriage, but your husband has control over that. He is the one who made vows to you. As someone who was the "other woman" I am truly accountable for being involved with a man who was married. I feel so horrible that I played a role in causing another person pain. However, I did not have bad intentions. I gave the man I loved a chance to do what he said he wanted to do. I didn't know that him chasing me for two years was all a lie. I compromised myself and my beliefs for love and I feel that was my biggest mistake. I should have stuck to my guns. I would also tell the wife to see the situation for what it is. Blaming the other woman does not resolve the issues within your marriage. It only makes it worse. Regardless of what is transpiring within the marriage, adult!
erey is not the answer.

why do you tnink men have affairs =: In my particular situation, I am not sure WHY he had an affair with me. Although when his wife asked him if he loved me and he said no (although he had been telling me this for two years) I still believe otherwise. I believe he lied because he had so much to lose had he said yes. He makes a lot of money, so he said no to protect his assets. I don't know what was missing in his marriage, but I do know that he purposely stays on the road for months at a time. He doesn't want to go home to be around her. Whenever he was in town, he would go home to Raliegh and spend the weekend and to see his kids, but he would come up to NO. VA to see me and spend two weeks. I don't know.. I don't get it. I don't understand why he would chase me down the way he did, tell me all his inner-most feelings for two years, and then finally get what he said he wanted to just lie the way he did.

did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: I felt guilty every single day. Which is why I never let up about him seperating from his wife. It's what he said he wanted, so I made sure to stay on him about it. I can never do it again. IT's not who I am and I spent so many days/night in tears because of what I was doing to his wife. I even took the matter to my Pastor. I spoke to him while in the middle of our relationship because I was so distraught over hurting her and my relationship with God.

where how often regularly =: We didn't meet. He was always here at my house all the time. We weren't sneaking around or anything. He lives in Raliegh, NC and I live in Manassas, Va. They moved to Raligh four years ago, but their friends are all up here. He had me around their mutual friends and everything. Our relationship was never hidden.

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: Yes, everyone in my family and circle of friends knew. I don't hide my life. I try to be as honest as I can, especially to those I love and care for. Fortunately, none of them was upset with me. Everyone said he wasn't going to leave, but I felt differently. They were shocked that I would even entertain a man who was married, yet they understood the predicament due to my feelings for him. Many of them have met him and has seen and heard the things he said to me. Those who met him felt the same as I, that he was serious about what he wanted out his relationship with me.

what did you learn =: WAIT WAIT WAIT!!! If they say they are married, RUN AWAY! QUICKLY!!!

Nancy Fenn and Her Familiar, Fluffy

2009-12-03T23:33:00.000-08:00

Saturn/Pluto Square as Pluto Enters Capricorn

2009-12-03T16:28:00.000-08:00

Now that Pluto entered Capriciorn, we'll be hearing from that amorphous thing called "The Collecive" more often and it will have a new voice. Often it sounds like a combination of the Church Lady and your Father when you know you're in big trouble.

Take for example the Tiger Woods scandal. The usual platitudes come out of Woods' mouth ("I let my family down" etc.) but i notice some shifting in the press' and bloggers' reactions. They are a little more cyncial, blase but also they are starting to question out loud and in this context whether men are monogamous and whether fidelity is still a good criterion for marriage.

Furthermore all the latest juicy transgressions have been by Republicans or members of the Establishment. It will be interesting to see if this is a trend. The Collective is by definition conservative.

Tiger Woods has Uranus stationary direct on his Descendant = wife gone bezerk = 7th house matter suddenly exposed.

How could he do this? The combination of Gemini and Scorpio can be a signature for leading a double life. It will be very hard of his Saturn in Leo and Ascendant in Virgo as there is a part of him that really wants to be Mr. Goody Two Shoes. Pluto is in Tiger Woods' 4th house with an inconjunct to Saturn in Leo - a complete self destruct where his image is concerned which could be costly with his endorsements and career.

Philippe Garrel'sSecond Saturn Return

2009-12-03T12:41:00.000-08:00

French filmmaker Philippe Garrel comes into his own at h is second Saturn Return with the marvelous film, "Frontier of Dawn", starring his son.

Are You Aware of the Dangers Lurking in Diet Drinks?

2009-11-22T18:18:00.000-08:00

From: Dr. Hull's website. She asks you to share the word, so I am.

Aspartame Side Effects
The components of aspartame can lead to a number of health problems, as you have read. Side effects can occur gradually, can be immediate, or can be acute reactions.

According to Lendon Smith, M.D. there is an enormous population suffering from side effects associated with aspartame, yet have no idea why drugs, supplements and herbs don’t relieve their symptoms. Then, there are users who don’t ‘appear’ to suffer immediate reactions at all. Even these individuals are susceptible to the long-term damage caused by excitatory amino acids, phenylalanine, methanol, and DKP.

Adverse reactions and side effects of aspartame include:

Eye
blindness in one or both eyes
decreased vision and/or other eye problems such as: blurring, bright flashes, squiggly lines, tunnel vision, decreased night vision
pain in one or both eyes
decreased tears
trouble with contact lenses
bulging eyes

Ear
tinnitus - ringing or buzzing sound
severe intolerance of noise
marked hearing impairment

Neurologic
epileptic seizures
headaches, migraines and (some severe)
dizziness, unsteadiness, both
confusion, memory loss, both
severe drowsiness and sleepiness
paresthesia or numbness of the limbs
severe slurring of speech
severe hyperactivity and restless legs
atypical facial pain
severe tremors

Psychological/Psychiatric
severe depression
irritability
aggression
anxiety
personality changes
insomnia
phobias

Chest
palpitations, tachycardia
shortness of breath
recent high blood pressure

Gastrointestinal
nausea
diarrhea, sometimes with blood in stools
abdominal pain
pain when swallowing

Skin and Allergies
itching without a rash
lip and mouth reactions
hives
aggravated respiratory allergies such as asthma

Endocrine and Metabolic
loss of control of diabetes
menstrual changes
marked thinning or loss of hair
marked weight loss
gradual weight gain
aggravated low blood sugar (hypoglycemia)
severe PMS

Other
frequency of voiding and burning during urination
excessive thirst, fluid retention, leg swelling, and bloating
increased susceptibility to infection

Additional Symptoms of Aspartame Toxicity include the most critical symptoms of all
death
irreversible brain damage
birth defects, including mental retardation
peptic ulcers
aspartame addiction and increased craving for sweets
hyperactivity in children
severe depression
aggressive behavior
suicidal tendencies

Aspartame may trigger, mimic, or cause the following illnesses:
Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
Epstein-Barr
Post-Polio Syndrome
Lyme Disease
Grave’s Disease
Meniere’s Disease
Alzheimer’s Disease
ALS
Epilepsy
Multiple Sclerosis (MS)
EMS
Hypothyroidism
Mercury sensitivity from Amalgam fillings
Fibromyalgia
Lupus
non-Hodgkins
Lymphoma
Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD)

These are not allergies or sensitivities, but diseases and disease syndromes. Aspartame poisoning is commonly misdiagnosed because aspartame symptoms mock textbook ‘disease’ symptoms, such as Grave’s Disease.

Aspartame changes the ratio of amino acids in the blood, blocking or lowering the levels of serotonin, tyrosine, dopamine, norepinephrine, and adrenaline. Therefore, it is typical that aspartame symptoms cannot be detected in lab tests and on x-rays. Textbook disorders and diseases may actually be a toxic load as a result of aspartame poisoning.

Ever gone to the doctor with real, physical symptoms, but he/she can’t find the cause? Well, it’s probably your diet, your environment, or both.

Aspartame is the common denominator for over 92 different health symptoms at the root of modern disease. The Aspartame Detoxification Program demonstrates the most effective way to reverse disease symptoms is removing the underlying cause - aspartame.

I counsel aspartame victims worldwide and have witnessed nine out of 10 clients restore their health by following the Aspartame Detoxification Program. Begin with detoxifying your body of all residual chemical toxins from aspartame's chemical make up of phenylalanine, aspartic acid and methanol and their toxic by-products, and see if any adverse health symptoms remain. Try the Aspartame Detoxification Program, and within 30 days your symptoms should disappear.

Steps:

1.Remove all sugar-free products with aspartame from your diet.
2.Learn to 'read' your body. Begin recording any health changes.
3.Get a hair analysis.
4.Be happy with yourself.
5.Detoxify.
6.Restore depleted nutrients.
7.Exercise and get plenty of rest.
8.Eat 75% raw foods at every meal.
9.Drink water, water, water.
10.Get control of your life.
I designed this Ten Step Program to help protect your health and the health of those you love from being seduced by the sugar-free diet craze. Wishing you good health.

Nancy Fenn's Sympathetic Other Woman Survey

2009-11-18T14:57:00.001-08:00

age =: 44

name for married lover: Chad

make up a name for you: Ellie

how did your relationship get started =: He was staying at the same hotel on business

how long did it last =: 3 mos

how did it end =: Wife found texts

would you do it again = : No

never done this before =: Yes. He had a 2 date fling 6 yrs. prior.

did he have any kids =: Yes. He had a 4 and 5 yr. old. Yes, he stated if it weren't for the kids he would be gone.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: No, I did not know her. We never met.

did you ever contact his wife = : No

spend a lot of money on you =: No

what did he promise you =: We were making future plans together. He arranged his work schedule to spend more time in my area. We were planning on my moving to his area next yr., organizing work plans and family plans around our ability to negotiate a relationship together.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: I wanted him. Absolutely. We made big plans together. He was tied to his wife by history, attachment and kids, but did not believe she was capable of loving him. No, I never pressed him for divorce.

are you still in contact with him = : No

A Good Idea

2009-11-18T01:18:00.001-08:00

Michael Lutin's Ode to Scorpios

2009-11-17T20:17:00.000-08:00

new moon in scorpio
Scorpio rules necrophiles and varied sexofreaks,
God when he's creative or mad,
A good many Arabs, Italians and Greeks,
And little girls who wanna be bad.

The go-go dancer clad in just a feather
Dramas that are played out in bed,
Dominating sadists in leather,
And millions of not so grateful dead.

Pickles cigars and long hard tools
Jack hammers rifles and drills
Places you hide the family jewels
Condoms and birth control pills.

Forty- second street on Saturday night,
Sickies who want to be destroyed,
People who hold your letters up to the light,
And EVERYTHING according to Freud.

Doctors and butchers are under this sign,
And fins that stick out of the sea,
Snow White's Stepmother and Frankenstein,
Roseanne Barr and DeSade the Marquis.

Hijackers, hookers,
Kidnappers Looters,
Blue jeans and gorgeous behinds,
The guys who clean your drains with their roto- rooters,
And don't forget johns of all kinds.

Footsteps behind you that quicken their pace,
Motels and nighttime raids,
A nylon stocking over your face,
Herpes, Clamydia, Aids.

Then of course there are plagues bubonic,
Twenty years of three packs a day,
All the forces you'd consider demonic,
Plus the power to throw your cigarettes away.

The strength to swim an icy river,
The courage of a fiery red ant,
The magic to grow back your liver,
The rage when they tell you you can't.

They kid they told, ‘We're sorry , but it's Cancer,"
The woman who had six months left on Earth.
Five years down the road, the kid's a dancer,
Ten years later SHE's still giving birth.

So if we turn to missile deployment,
When the pumpkins have replaced all the coaches,
When it's one hundred percent unemployment,
And there's nothing left but ringing phones and roaches,

Who's' gonna make it through the mushroom cloud,
Laughing at apocalyptic jive?
Who will roll the stone away and tear off the shroud?
Who's gonna keep this world alive?

What gives a peach tree peaches?
What fills the space between the stars?
What happens all along moonlit beaches
And sometimes late at night in bars?
Scorpio, my Friend, Scorpio.
Now playing everywhere.
And don't you forget it.

Manny Pacquaio's Birth Chart and HHoroscope

2009-11-15T22:34:00.000-08:00

Read about the amazing Manny Pacquiao and learn from his astrology chart. What makes a
superstar athlete, politician actor, filmmaker and recording industry success?

Manny Pacquiao defeated Miguel Cotto today.

Quote from wiki:

The Filipino boxing superstar is the first boxer to win seven world titles in seven different weight divisions.In addition, he is the first and only boxer to win the lineal championship ("the man who beat the man who beat the man") in four different weight classes. Aside fro...m being a boxer, Pacquiao has participated in politics, acting, filmmaking, and music recording.

See Manny's chart.

This multifacetted individual is having an incredible Saturn Return experience.

Real name Emmanuel Dapidran Pacquiao

Nickname(s)

Pac-Man
Fighting Pride of the Philippines
The Mexicutioner
Ang Pambansang Kamao (The National Fist)
Pretty Boy Assassin

Introverts are not Bad and Wrong!

2009-11-10T09:01:00.000-08:00

From KJ:

Wow... here I was just trying to understand why noise and disruption at work push me to the the point of getting not just irritated but angry.

Started perusing your site and bookmarked it... wow... I always knew I was an introvert based on Myers Briggs tests (INTJ) but to read the experiences from other introverts... wow... maybe I'm not so nuts/neurotic and this is just a big part of who I am... and the conflict always comes from trying to NOT be that because well meaning people around me push me to be more extroverted, which invariably throws me terribly out of whack.

I'm going to be all over your site (at work right now) later on because this site is explaining a LOT about who I just inherently am, and that it's not wrong or bad...

Please visit www.theintrovertzcoach.com for articles and resources.

Families

2009-11-06T12:24:00.001-08:00

From NB
"Families have no privileged status as relationships for me. They can be -- probably are -- the most potentially destructive, violent spaces of any. "To paidi mou" or "e mana mou" can be the three scariest words in the world for me, and the justification for some of the blindest, most horrendous selfishness imaginable."

"To paidi mou" and "e mana mou" means "my child" "my mother"

Crisis

2009-11-04T19:29:00.001-08:00

Astrologer Robert Hand once described crisis as “a moment in which the past has the least hold on the present and the present has a maximum hold on the future.”

Getting Introverts to T alk

2009-11-04T15:53:00.000-08:00

We were asked by the S.W.A.T. team officer:

My name is XXX and I am a SWAT negotiator with the XXX Police Department. One of my jobs is to find new recourse's and training for the negotiation team. Your article intrigued me because we often deal with people who are non responsive and show very introverted traits.

It is essential that we communicate with people in crisis regardless if they are introverts or not. Often times when my team arrives at a scene, the person in crisis does not want to respond.

Do you have any additional information on how to break the ice with Introverts?

How to get people to start talking with us when they're in crisis?

Thank you for your time,

XXx XXXPolice Department HNT Team

Our answer on behalf of introverts everywhere ...

This is from my technical, spiritual and menu advisor Dave who taught me everything I know about MBTI!!.
>
Relative to MBTI types, there are two distinct types of Introverts. The Introverted Sensing types will always notice and (hopefully) recall more data than any police officer needs. They observe and remember everything and only need to be made to feel like they are part of the team in order to share this information. Of course, you can't make them part of the team if you bully them or pressure them. This is especially true of ISTP/ISFP's. Judging types tend to naturally understand the need for order and closure.

Introverted Intuitive types are more of a problem since they are not naturally very aware of their surroundings. They might not even notice key details that could provide helpful information to the police. It is very hard to share information that you never collected. Fortunately, only a very small percentage of the population are IN-types.

Lets use an example here. Bad guys try to rob a bank, cops show up - hostage situation at hand. Bad guys released 12 Introverted hostages in good faith. Police need to interview the released hostages. All 10 of the IS types notice what the bad guys were wearing, how many guns they had, how much ammo they had, whether their nails were dirty or they needed a shave.
In the back of their minds, the ISTP/ISFP Artisans would take this robbery personal. The ISTJ/ISFJ Guardians would view it as an attack on the system (that they love).

The Introverted Intuitive would look at it from a broader perspective.
The lone INFP is probably wondering why they were robbing the bank for in the first place, why would they pick that bank, wonder about the bad guys family life, what drove them to crime, etc. The INTJ is wondering why they would rob a bank so close to a police station, and why they didn't have a better getaway plan. The INTJ just knew they could do a better job robbing a bank.

Obviously, this is a gross exaggeration - but it does make my point.
Information is not the same thing for everyone. This is a very important consideration.

My take on this is that you are pretty much on the money except it might not hurt to consider the shadow personality thing. Fear can make Extroverts clam up tight as a drum. It call also make Introverts talkative. The most important thing to do is take fear out of the equation for Extroverts and to allow the shadow side of the Introvert to show itself. I would not decrease the pressure on the Introverts - I would increase it. Of course, I am a prick sometimes. Let me re-state that. I think that all of what you suggested in great, especially the part about the calming voice, creating a comfortable atmosphere and even a being able to write down thoughts. It is always a good idea to give an Introvert a notepad to write on as you are asking questions. These same things should all work well with Extroverts too, in my untrained opinion, as you are trying to calm and manage their energy.

If the above doesn't work, then I would push really hard. Introverts will usually revert into themselves under pressure - they will find their comfort zone and hide there for long periods of time. To extract information, you need to push them out of their comfort zone by being demanding and intruding. The only sure way to get them out of their space is for you to get into it and push them out. This will lead to a lot of bad feelings and resentment - but it is quick and effective.

I hope this helps. Thanks for sharing with me...

Dave

These are my suggestions that he is referring. Take what you like and leave the rest. “Intention” always rules! As my grandmother used to say, “Where there’s a will, there’s a way.”

First and foremost, mirror their body language EXACTLY. Continue to do this throughout your time together.
> 2. Have several people to choose from including at least one woman. Ask them, “Who (which one)do you want to stay here with you?” Use
> those exact words, don’t mention talking.
> 3. Give good eye contact one time (make sure it happens) and then look down or away for the rest of the time.
> 4. Keep your voice well modulated (no quasi military bullshit)
> 5. Say “we” instead of “I”
> 6. “We need some information. It will be days before you can really organize your thoughts, we understand, so you can answer one-word answers and we’ll let you write it out for us later or come by and hear the whole story and exactly how it happened in a few days. For now it’s ok to just answer in one word. Ok? It’s ok if you need to cry, too, or smoke or anything you need to do, ok, we can still understand your words. Nod your head when you’re ready ... when we can begin, ok. One word is all we need. We’ll help you with the rest.” [I am purposely using vague and winding language so s/he can get used to the sound of my voice. At a crisis situation sounds are horrifying to an introvert, way too much noise and stimulation. Use your voice to calm the person down.]

7. Especially the aforementioned infp type will want to know no one will be shot or convicted on the basis of information they came up with on the spur of the moment and under duress.
> 7. “Would you like to continue somewhere else?” Introverts are very territorial and very sensitive to their surroundings. They may overtly want you off of their property or out of their living space before they can calm down.
> 8. “Would you like me to hold your hand?” Expect an emphatic yes or no and don’t take it personally – there are 4 different types of introverts.
> 9. In every group of people there is always someone with a calming VOICE. Be on the lookout for this person and try to recruit them L OL
> 10. “All we need is for you to do your best with your one or two word answers. We’ll let you correct it all later if you need to. Just do your best.”
>
> Regarding people one-step removed from the crisis
> 11. IF the person isn’t directly involved in the situation convince them how IMPORTANT it is. Introverts hate small talk and won’t say anything if it isn’t going to be taken seriously.. “Lives have been saved by seemingly casual information from bystanders like you.” “We feel you may have critical information to add to the big picture .....”

Getting in the Mood - Nancy R. Fenn

2009-10-29T22:14:00.000-07:00

Saturn enters Libr

2009-10-29T15:47:00.000-07:00

As Saturn enters Libra for the first time in 30 years, you’ll hear one astrologer after another tell you it’s all about relationships. It’s not. It’s all about integrity of the self.

How many “different people” are you? How often have you sold out to be popular or well liked? Are you consistent about what you tell people or do you talk behind someone’s back? When was the last time you triangulated? Do you talk out both sides of your mouth? Do you promise mo re than you can deliver?

Time to clean up your act.

Words to DEM MILNERS TRERN, a Yiddish Folk Song

2009-10-28T12:57:00.000-07:00

A friend gave me the words to Dem Milners Trern, theYiddish folk song they played at the end of the Coen Brothers' new film, "A Serious Man".

THE MILLER’S TEARS

Oh, how many years have gone by,

Since I am miller here?

The wheels (of the mill) are turning,

The years are passing,

I’m already old and gray.

There are days when I try to remember,

If I ever had a bit of luck.

The wheels are turning,

The years are passing,

No answer comes back to me.

I have heard them say,

they want to drive me,

From the town and from the mill,

The wheels are turning,

The years are passing,

Without an end and without a goal.

Where will I live?

Who will look after of me?

I’m already old,

I’m already tired.T

he wheels are turning

The years are passing,

And together with them,

the Jew is dying.

What about the Stock Market November 17th?

2009-10-21T11:35:00.000-07:00

Incredibly, the North Node of the New York Stock Exchange is only 1 degree from Saturn's ingress into Libra and its progressed Sun is right at Pluto's position in Capricorn. The square takes place between 3rd and 5th houses. Certainly it's time for a "new face" but what else will happen?

Relative to the upcoming Saturn square Pluto transit ... I'm wondering about the stock market. Which way will it go?

Follow my blog or catch me on facebook for updates.

Executive and EQ Coach Susan Dunn said, "The stock market is the most emotional thing there is."

In 1982 at the beginning of the current world order (Saturn conjunct Pluto in Libra) there was a 9 year high followed by a short but deep reccession.

Harvey Pitt was appointed SEC Chairman at crisis or turning point when Pluto in Sagittarius opposed Saturn in Gemini in 2001. This is the halffway point in any cycle like the Full Moon. I think Harvey would agree!!

Take a look at the more complete history and more charts of the New York Stock Exchange.

The North Node of the NY Stock Exchange is at 2 degrees Libra -- amazing. Just 1 degree away from Saturn's ingress into Libra. Its progressed Sun is conjunct transiting Pluto.

Here is the only complete and accurate listing of this cycle's dates on the internet. Most of the transits lasted 2 years:

1982 conjunct in Libra

1989 Saturn in Capricorn separating sextile Pluto in Scorpio

1993 Saturn in Aquarius separating square Pluto in Scorpio - Leavitt appointed

1997 Saturn in Aries trine Pluto in Sagittarius - let the good times roll

2002 Saturn in Gemini opposite Pluto in Sagittarius - enter Harvey Pitt

2007 Saturn in Leo trine Pluto in Sagittarius

2009 Saturn in Libra culminating square Pluto in Capricorn - only the Shadow knows at this poinnt but stay tuned as I will try to "call it" before Nov. 1

2013 Saturn in Scorpio culminating sextile Pluto in Capricorn

2020 conjunct in Capricorn

Arthur Leavitt was appointed SEC Charman in 1993 for a long dynamic term befitting a separating square; however all the later troubles incubated there! Leavitt's communicative "take it to the people" style fit the Aquarius aspect under which he took office.

Harvey Pitt's short, volatile term in office followed in 2001 just as Saturn faced off against Pluto. It was at a the turning point of this gigantic far reaching cycle. If this were a Verdi opera the music would be wratched up unbearably as Pitt walked onto the stage to sing a bass solo aria of incredibly ominous tension yet he is the hero not the villain! The whole term could be characterized as "crisis management" as it included 911 (days after taking office) and Enron and son of Enron and son of son of ... LOL ... and maybe even son of Wrath of Khan ... which is what Pitt does at is Kalorama Partners firm in DC and NY, crisis management. I espouse Adam Smith's "Invisible Hand" theory -- if only we had eyes to see we'd notice that history always gives us the right person.

Dates for Current Saturn/Pluto Cycle

2009-10-20T13:58:00.000-07:00

1982 conjunct in Libra
1989 Saturn in Capricorn separating sextile Pluto in Scorpio
1993 Saturn in Aquarius separating square Pluto in Scorpio
1997 Saturn in Aries trine Pluto in Sagittarius
2002 Saturn in Gemini opposite Pluto in Sagittarius
2007 Saturn in Leo trine Pluto in Sagittarius
2009 Saturn in Libra culminating square Pluto in Capricorn
2013 Saturn in Scorpio culminating sextile Pluto in Capricorn
2020 conjunct in Capricorn

Check back for more details or order your personalized report for $50 nancy@bemyguide.net

The Saturn/Pluto Square Transit

2009-10-19T09:57:00.000-07:00

November 15th, the two heaviest planets, Saturn and Pluto, meet to duke it out, resolving a quarrel which began to develop after they met back in 1982 and had some good times establishing a new world order.

This aspect will return January 31, 2010 and August 21, 2101.

There may or may not be repercussions in the world but I want you to look at YOUR world, your life, the sphere of events that are personal to you.

Here's what was happening in the world.

Falklands War
Canadian Independence
Spain joins NATO
Israel invades Lebanon, Lebanese Civil War, Israel return Sinai to Egypt
Fahd becomes King of Saudi Arabia upon the death of his brother Khalid
Prince William is born
Sun Myung Moon is busted
Mexico announces it is unable to pay its large foreign debt triggering a debt crisis throughout Latin America
Lebanese president assassinated
US Savings and Loan Industry deregulated
Dow Jones reaches a 9-year high
The Peoples Republic of China adopts its current constitution
Compact discs first introduced in Germany
Times “Man of the Year” is the computer
Freeware was first introduced
Times Beach, Missouri evacuated
A brief but severe recession begins in the US
King Sobhuza II of Swaziland died, at the time the longest reigning living monarch
Leonid Brezhnev dies in office
Michael Jackson introduced “Thriller”

So watch the news for these players : China, Lebanon, Canada and Spain, change of power in Russia and Saudi Arabia, another devaluation of the peso in Mexico??

Look for major news events around Prince William, possibly the death or abdication of his grandmother. There is tremendous pressure on his chart in the next year or so. To a lesser degrree we may see Jessica Biel and Kirten Dunst in the news. Michael Jackson has already been in the news. Expect a lot in the news about gurus, good and bad.

I encourage you to think how you can connect these dots because it will develop your intuitive muscle (therefore your spirituality) and it should also reveal some of the otherwise veiled connections between events that give you an inkling of the workings of the universe and meaning to events in your personal life. The world’s greatest economist, Adam Smith, called this “the Invisible Hand”.

So where were you in 1982?

In 1982 my whole world sure changed. My dad died in 1980 and my mother was pronounced terminal in 1982.

My FAvorite Poem

2009-10-18T14:41:00.000-07:00

Sundays too my father got up early
And put his clothes on in the blueback cold,
then with cracked hands that ached from labor
in the weekday weather made banked fires blaze.
No one ever thanked him.
I'd wake and hear the cold splintering, breaking.
When the rooms were warm,
he'd call, and slowly I would rise and dress,
fearing the chronic angers of that house,
Speaking indifferently to him,
who had driven out the cold
and polished my good shoes as well.
What did I know, what did I know
of love's austere and lonely offices?
- Robert Hayden, Those Winter Sundays.

Saturn Return in Libra for Tennis World

2009-10-18T11:19:00.000-07:00

The tennis world is in for a shakeup with World Ranked #1 Male Roger Federer, Anna Kournakova, Andy Roddick and World Ranked #1 Female Serena Williams all having their Saturn Returns in Libra.

[Photo of Serena from wiki.]

Roger Federer's Saturn Return

2009-10-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

"[Roger] Federer has won 15 Grand Slam singles titles, more than any other male player. He is one of six male players to have captured the career Grand Slam. Federer has appeared in an unprecedented 21 career Grand Slam finals, and as of September 2009, has reached the semi-finals or better of the last 22 Grand Slam tournaments, a streak that spans over five years.[12] Federer also holds the record of reaching 10 consecutive Grand Slam finals and has appeared in 17 of the last 18." [wiki]

Roger Federer has Saturn at 6 degrees Libra and his Saturn Return changes have already begun. He has been losing matches for the first time. He has become the father of twins. What will happen next?

[Roger Federer's birth chart f rom astrotheme.com.]

And what will happen to you?. Were you born between September 22, 1980 and November 29, 1982 or Nvember 20, 1950 through November 22, 1953? Check my website for more infiormation.

Prince William's Saturn Return in Libra and BIrth Chart

2009-10-18T00:06:00.000-07:00

Prince William has his Saturn at 15 degrees in Libra. His Sun and Moon are currently opposed by tr Pluto. Look for his name in headlines; a very stressful Saturn Return.

Here is Prince William's birth chart from astrotheme.com

Look for my Saturn Return in Libra Series.

Daniel Day Lewis BIrth Chart

2009-10-17T23:05:00.000-07:00

Does anyone know Daniel Day Lewis' Rising Sign or exact time of birth?

The Sympathetic "Other Woman" Suruvey

2009-10-17T23:01:00.000-07:00

=: 55

name for married lover: Frank

make up a name for you: Kim

how did your relationship get started =: At work

how long did it last =: 9 years
　
how did it end =: His wife wanted to move to North Carolina to get a fresh start. So he moved with her and his two kids

would you do it again = : Never in a million years

never done this before =: It was his second time remarrying her. He did it to her the first time around and they divorced. I was the second time around woman

did he have any kids =: he has two kids 13 and 18 and he did say many times he was in the marriage for the kids. He had to think of his kids.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: I met his wife a few times here and there but never got to know her.
did you ever contact his wife = : I sent a letter to her three brothers telling them about the affair. I devasted the whole family. I was the wrong choice. I did it in anger. I did it because after he moved away he continued to contact me. Telling me he missed me loved me wanted to see me so badly. He requested naked pictures of me repeatedly. Then he continued to tell me bad things about his wife how she was treating him. I got so angry one day I couldn't take it anymore so I wrote the letter and sent a copy of his email requesting the pictures of me.

spend a lot of money on you =: No money nothing ever....

what did he promise you =: He promised he was leaving his wife many many times and that we would be together someday.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: I wanted to marry him and I did press him to leave North Carolina and come back to be with me.

are you still in contact with him = : I have tried to stop contact repeately I changed my numbers and then gave them back to him.. I am again trying. I have changed my cell phone and work phone has been changed but he still has my home phone. I have blocked his emails and chat and facebook.

did you have an abortion or a child =: no

did you date others =: yes

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : Please don't ever do it. It is so very painful sometimes you will want to die. There were days I was so depressed crying all day many times. He has no regard for you at all he will lie and lie and lie just to keep you and her. He wants you both. Run like the wind from a married man....

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: He is lying to her and will continue to lie just to be with the mistress. He is addicted just like a drug or alcohol. He will bounce her around she should think of leaving him or if he is willing go to counseling because there are things that are wrong in the marriage and the mistress is just the product of it all.
why do you tnink men have affairs =: He said she criticized everything he did. She was not affectionate. Everything had to be her way in the house he had no say in anything. I think I made him feel like he was unconditionally loved by me and I never criticized him or tried to change him.

did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: Not really I hated the wife. He told me such terrible things about her and the way she treated him I never felt guilty not one second.

where how often regularly =: In my office, at his house when his wife was not home, on breaks it was random

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: I told everyone. They were just concerned that I was not going to get hurt. They didn't want to see that

what did you learn =: Well, I learned that I am a good person and I deserve to #1 not #2 or #3 and I will settle for nothing less anymore. I went thru such pain, emotionally because I fell deeply in love with him. I still love him to this day. I am ready to move on tough. What amazes me is that he still trys to contact me even though his wife watches his every move and that he continues to stay in a bad marriage and that she continues to stay in a bad marriage knowing her husband has been unfaithful. What also amazes me is how a person could lie so much to everyone. I could write a book really what I have told you is just a dot on a pages and pages of this relationship

Boomers on MEdicare

2009-10-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

If you're a Boomer going on Medicare in the next few years ... here's the man to thank!!

Lyndon Baines Johnson [photo from wiki]

The Sympathetic "Other Woman" Survey

2009-10-13T16:01:00.001-07:00

me for married lover: Edward

make up a name for you: Anne

how did your relationship get started =: He and I worked together, he started showing interest in my single life, caring about who I was spending time with, encouraging me not to settle and then started offering to help me fix things around my house so I would not have to hire someone, he called me and wished me happy weekend, made excuses to see me on jobs, then one day said he was spending so much time around me because he wanted to be around me and that he had settled in his less than 3 yr 2nd marraige and that he did not want me to settle. He expressed a struggle in how he could get out of the commitment he made with this 2nd wife and if he did divorce her how would I ever trust him?

how long did it last =: 2-1/2 yrs. A couple of times he left me and usually it was holidays and summers when family was around, but he always came back crying about how he did not want to lose me, he only saw his future with me, he did not see himself staying with wife forever,and he was trying to get it all figured out in his head how to justify divorce.

how did it end =: He finally went to talk to a pastor to explain his feelings for me and how he saw his future with me and how he had never loved or desired another the way he did with me and the pastor told him what he was doing was wrong and that his future was not with me,but with his wife. He told me he could not justify divorcing her no matter how much he wanted me and us and that it would haunt him forever if he walked out on her. He said that she may have his name but I have his heart and he said I knew the truth and he was only doing what he felt led by God to do,which was stay married and stay in the life he signed up for no matter how selfish his feelings were that he wanted to be with me.

would you do it again = : No

never done this before =: No he had never done this. I believe him.

did he have any kids =: He had custody of two kids from previous marriage. He said his struggle was how to role model making a commitment to a wife in front of God and then in less than 3 years, saying it is ok to change your mind. He said he wanted to leave a legacy to his sons of how to always do the right thing.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: No I did not know her. I met her once but would not have recognized her in a crowd.

did you ever contact his wife = : I wrote her a long email and told her all the truth. She was shocked. She had suspected previously and found some emails he wrote to me. But he told her he would stay away from me and honor his commitment to their marriage. But he came back to me after 2 months and said he could not live that life or he would die. Then she found out he came back to me and she came over to my house while we were there. He would not let me answer the door. He never has been back in 5 months. He obviously told her again he would never see me again.

spend a lot of money on you =: yes, he was always buying me gifts, jewelry, etc.

what did he promise you =: He promised me a life, a future, we had a money market account, we started a LLC company together, we had house plans, he promised me he would marry me. He actually committed his life to me forever 3 years ago.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: I wanted to marry him. I waited till his youngest son went off to college and I told him it was time, and he could/would not do it.

are you still in contact with him = : No

did you have an abortion or a child =: no

did you date others =: I tried to see other men to get over him hurting me when he would disappear but I never could get involved because of my commitment to him

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : Don't do it, don't fall for anything they have to say. Tell them if they want you, you have to be number 1, they have to get a divorce.

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: Don't be an idiot. If you think he is not into you, then he probably is getting his needs met elsewhere. I would hire a service to follow him and tape his cell phone records, etc.

why do you tnink men have affairs =: I believe when you are married to the wrong person, someone you are not bound to in an intimate manner, the marriage is lacking. He and his wife (according to him) lacked intimacy. He said they were more like friends and room mates.

did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: Yes, I hated it. I encouraged him to make it right as soon as possible so we could stop being deceitful.

where how often regularly =: My house. He called me every single morning, ran to me, we spent most days together, lunch, afternoons at my house, traveled on vacations, he texted me goodnight each and every night.

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: Everyone in my life knew about this. They all believed he was a man who was going to do what he said.

what did you learn =: I learned that a person who seemed so sincere, so tender hearted, so true and committed to me,can just walk away like I was NOTHING. I have never been so hurt in my entire life.

The Sympathetic "Other Woman" Survey

2009-10-10T16:21:00.000-07:00

name for married lover: Romeo

make up a name for you: Juliet

how did your relationship get started =: I am a veterinary technician, he was the doc and owner of the practice. I was married for 12 years and my husband was abusive. Not that this is any excuse. I was going through an emotional struggle. I had tried to leave 2 other times and stayed bc he promised to change. He just continued to be the same. I was hurting and hated going home bc I knew it was tense. I loved my job. We had recently moved to this new town to get a new start, so I left my job of 10 yrs and started working for Romeo. Things just went back to the way they were and I knew no one out here in the country. I became really good friends withthe girls at work and really began to respect the doc. When I first interviewed w/ him I thought he was very strange. Months later we became close, joking with one another, talking over surgery and he taught me a lot of things about the business and in depth things about surgery and so on. Although I have been in the field for 10 years, I didn't work much with the surgeries. Needless to say, we all began going out on thurs nights for an hour or so. The doc bought us all a round of drinks and we would chat, play pool and just relax. It was nice to get away.

Romeo had a lot of respect for me, I brought a lot of ideas to his business from the large practice I worked at before, and helped out with client services and how to educate clients better to get them to use all of his services. We just made a good team, and became best friends over time and one night it happened. We both had made flirtation jokes, but I had a few drinks and spilled my guts a little that if he wasn't married...and then he kissed me. The next working day was weird bc we were not sure what the other was going to say. It just went on from there. It was exciting and I enjoyed being appreciated.

Over time, I fell deeply in love with him more and more as days went on. As far as his wife goes, the truth is I could never stand the way she acted towards him. There were times she would come in their with his best friend and they would come up front together (the friend)and were all over each other. She didn't talk to her husband very respectful either. I jsut felt like we shared this together, the lack of appreciation and disrespect from our spouses. I am a very sensitive person, and I am very compassionate. I am not a mean person, I swear! I have times where I feel so bad about this, and then other times I feel bad for him. I do understand why this happend. We were both emotionally unhappy in our marriages.

Needless to say, we were caught by my husband. I had already told him I wanted a divorce, he moved out. One day he left work early and came back to the house and we were "together". It was humiliating, embarassing, scary and regretful. It has been almost 2 years now, and we are still together. My divorce has been final for a while, but his is still going on. She is dragging it out and has pulled some nasty tricks on him. They both have businesses, so there is a lot to settl!
e. They went through counseling and were going to try to work it out, I lost my job of course. I have been supportive of whatever he needs to do. I do not like being the cause of the divorce. I just want him to be happy, even if that means with her. I do truly believe he loves me, and I do not think he wants to be with her. She uses scare tactics and guilt and belittling him to do the right thing and not divorce. I do understand I really have no right to get mad bc I did this to myself. I have broken it off with him and told him he needs to decide what he really wants and I should not be in the way if he loves her. He just comes back pleading his love for me and he wants to be with me, he just hates hurting her and needs to be easy with her. They do not live together and haven't for over a year. He still jumps through hoops to please her if she makes a request, even if it means me sitting at home alone. I suppose this is what I get. I didn't do this to be malicious. I truly love this man and would do anything for him. When we are together, it is just wonderful. It isn't forced, it is just natural for us. We enjoy each others company. We can not say anything and just sit and hold hands and it just feels right no matter what we are doing. I have to say, I am having my doubts now about the relationship. I am getting impatient and feeling guilty that the divorce is still not final. I am wondering if maybe his feelings are stronger than he realized and he just doesn't know which way to go.

He is 25 yrs older than me and this bothers him. I get a lot of flack for it from others, so does he. Mainly our ex's. She tells him he is an old man and looks silly walking around with me. Anyway, I would do anything for him. Including walking away peacefully if he wants to work things out with his wife. It will hurt, but I would not want to be the choice he regrets. Honestly, I feel bad for the situation bc it has hurt so many people. Including myself. This has been one of the most painful experieces of my life. However, I do not regret my own divorce, it should have happened a long time ago. I just want peace in my life. I am so torm on whether to walk or hold on. He tells me he is going through with this divorce and he can't live without me. He has tried and everytime he tries to, he realizes how much he loves me. I sometimes feel foolish like it is never going to happen. As you can tell, I am very hurt and confused and do not know what to do. I do not want to lose his love, at the same time I do not want to be taken for granted.

would you do it again = : If this does not work out, I assure you I will never cross that line again. I would not even date a man who is going through divorce, ever!

never done this before =: No, he had stepped out of the marriage once before. He was upfront about this.

did he have any kids =: His kids are older and out of the house.It would not have mattered.
did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: I knew his wife from coming into the office, and she went out with us all one evening. She was very snobby from day 1, and thought of us employees as just nobody's. She was very short with all of us as if we were stupid.

did you ever contact his wife = : I would never contact her. It is not my place.

spend a lot of money on you =: I am just a simple girl. I am not into expensive things. He takes me to dinner and he has bought me things, but I really just enjoy his time!

what did he promise you =: Things would be ok.
　
did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: I would love to marry him. I do not think he is a bad guy, and I do not think he is a player. I think he is a respectable man that is tired of being worn down and degrated. Nothing he does is evern good enough for her. I do not hear this from him, I have seen it with her in the office and the majority of the town has said she has always done him this way. They say he shoud have left her a long time ago. He still defends her and says she can't help it, or it isn't as bad as what people say. He takes responsibility for his onw short comings too. This is one of the reasons I love him. He is a good man and tries to see the best in people. He is not judgemental and takes responsibility for his own doings. He is a good man.

are you still in contact with him = : yes

did you have an abortion or a child =: no

did you date others =: I have went on a few dates when he went back to his wife. I realized quickly, it was pointless and you can't date when you are in love with someone else. It isn't fair to the other person either.

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : Don't do it! If the marriage is really over, they will get out anyway. Then if you are available at the same time, you can date. Affairs are painful for all involved. Not just the obvious, but your children, your extended family and your friends. No one likes to see peole they love in pain. Everyone makes mistakes, and once you cross that line the feelings get deeper and it is messy. The guilt alone is heartbreaking and very depressing. Even if your partners significant other doesn't seem to love them, they still built that life together and you assisted in tearing it down.

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: I would feel like a hypocrite, but I would want to know how long. There is a difference in having a sexual affair and someone he is actually in love with. I would not want to be married to a man in love with someone else and one I could not trust. However, I would ask this same person if they have ever crossed the line, or even thought about it. I think you have to look deep into the marriage and ask why. Are you married just for the sake of not losing money, a house and there is no emotional bond? I think if deep down you are not really happy, you shouldn't stay. You are cheating them and yourself, and your kids. If all you do is fight, or even have no communication, what kind of example are you setting of a "loving healthy relationship".
why do you tnink men have affairs =: I think there are different situations. He was missing appreciation, sincerity, passion and communication.
did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: Yes
where how often regularly =: In the office, his house, my house, the park, lunches.
did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: My closest friend, I worked with her. She figured it out. She said she did not condone it, but she understood. She said it was obvious there were fellings between us.

what did you learn =: I have learned a lot. I can truly say I have learned a lot about love, myself and lines that should not be crossed. I can say before this man, I am not sure I have ever really been in love. The things I have been willing to sacrifice for him, the pain involved, the time I have put into this without knowing the outcome, it is like I am dieing inside between my love for him, my guilt for the situation, the things I have lost and the situation I have put myself in. I have 4 children who I love dearly and I do not like the example I have set and the situation they have experienced. He will always be my hero for making me see I did not deserve the abuse,and giving me the confidence to leave. My kids are happier children now that they do not have to live that life. However, I am not happy with the other things he has done. Stringing me along sometimes, my life is in limbo. Although I would never do this again, I do not regret our time together. I felt love for the first time. I know he loves me and has treated me better than any man ever has. The stringing along is just him being unable to decide what to do between his love for me and his responsibility to the promise he made so many years ago. I am not naive, I see the pain he is going through and he would be giving up a lot. If he were able to just up and leave for someone else without giving it any thought, I would be scared.

The Age of Aquarius

2009-10-10T13:42:00.000-07:00

The Age of Aquarius

Comment on my article by a reader:

This is terrific and highly informative article. But I can not be naive to believe that the Fundamentalists will subscribe to ideas presented here. As Thomas Aquinas once said "for those who believe no proof is necessary; for those who don't believe no proof is possible." Yet it amazes me how much these "fundamentalists" don't know their own Bible at all and can only reference the Bible when trying to discredit the idea that the Bible is not a literal history.
Have you ever heard of the Zeitgeist Movement. It is headed up by a man named Peter Joseph who has made two very provocative movies on the fraudulence of religion, the monetary system and the world's governments. The movement itself is actually the activist arm of the Venus Project. The VP is a proposal of a money-free world where decisions are arrived at rather than voted on and manipulated through the priority of profit. The VP is gaining more and more popularity as this recession continues--especially in Europe. You can watch both films(Zeitgeist and Zeitgeist Addendum)online at googlevideo.com for free. This proposal makes no claim to be Utopian, but does address the true underlying causes of societal problems of today and offers true and unbiased solutions for those problems. I hope you will find these movies and discuss them with your students...because of the favor of Capitalism in the US, there seems to be very little awareness and support for it in this hemisphere.

Recommendations for Nancy R. Fenn

2009-09-29T11:34:00.000-07:00

BeMyAstrologer.com

Terry Lamb, Owner, Inner Edge Human Technologies/Astro-Energetic Healingworked with Nancy at Bookstore
“Nancy is profoundly insightful. She has a superlative gift at grasping and presenting one's total life situation and issues with truly actionable ideas. And she is capable of drilling down to day to day specifics. I consider her a significant asset as I go forward on my personal journey.”
Top qualities: Great Results, Expert, High Integrity

Robert Dunbarhired Nancy as a Counseling in 1999, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy is an excellent astrologer and psychic. She is the nation's Saturn Return expert and helped me through my second Saturn Return and with other situations in my life. She also taught me how to read Tarot cards and is an excellent teacher.”
Top qualities: Great Results, Expert, High Integrity

Semiramis Appiamohired Nancy as a Astrologer in 2000, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy is a master at coaching, astrologer and reading. She has helped me in every area of my life. Further, I have referred COUNTLESS clients to Nancy for coaching. She is the nation's Expert on second Saturn Return (ages 58-60) and on Introverts. I recommend her without reservation.”
Top qualities: Great Results, Expert, High Integrity

Susan Dunnhired Nancy as a Career Coach in 1,985, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy is one of the best psychic consultants I've encountered. I have had many readings with her and have referred quite a few friends. Her insight has proven itself time and again. When my son was born seven years ago she did his Natal Chart, which I refer to every so often. It has been a very helpful tool in understanding and interacting with his particular personality. I highly recommend Nancy. She is amazing.”
Top qualities: Great Results, Expert, High Integrity

Wendy Holmhired Nancy as a Psychic consultation in 1995, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy is a wonderful caring advisor. She is highly intuitive, positive, intelligent, thorough and trustworthy. Nancy has gently guided me through many stressful times with her insightful advice and encouragement. She is always there for me, no matter what. I view her as not just an advisor or teacher but a friend. She is also a gifted teacher, who researches extensively, is open and receptive with a continuing sense of wonder.”
Top qualities: Personable, Expert, High Integrity

Mo Murrayhired Nancy as a Astrologer/Tarot Reader/Advisor in 2005, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy is a wonderful astrologer and intuitive. She has given me insight into situations that I could have never seen on my own. She has a God given talent in these areas. She comes highly recommended and I have worked with her for over 15 years.”
Top qualities: Great Results, Personable, High Integrity

Tamara Grahamhired Nancy as a Astrologer in 1990, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy Fenn is an extremely gifted psychic and astrologer. She has guided me through many difficult times with her beacon of light, knowledge, and expertise. I am always in awe of her uncanny insight and psychological interpretations. Nancy possesses an eagle's eye of focus which has assisted me in targeting and obtaining my goals. Her tender gentleness and kindness melts away any fears I may have and is a calming center in my life. What I really admire about Nancy is her impeccable ability to predict and effect energy. I have elicited Nancy's help for years and will continue for years to come. She's utterly amazing and I don't know what I would do without her!”
Top qualities: Great Results, Personable, Expert

Margaret Lorishired Nancy as a International Teacher and Healer in 1996, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy is a brilliant and expert astrologer specializing in saturn return chart readings. I came to her for a reading during that difficult time and her reading was so in-depth/thorough, intuitive, inspiring, and reassuring. Some of her insights simply amazed me. The entire process helped me immensely. Still today, I reread her report every few months to gain perspective on my life with a few new "aha...that's what that means" every time. It's kind of like a mini-life guide. I've been to many astrologers, and she is by far the best---she has strong intuitive faculties and is kind-hearted and approachable. I highly recommend her services!”
Top qualities: Great Results, Expert, Creative

Amy Provenzanohired Nancy as a Astrology in 2005, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy brings compassion and insight to every interaction i've had with her.”
Top qualities: Great Results, Personable, Creative

Michele Gutierrezhired Nancy as a Readings in 2004, and hired Nancy more than once
“Nancy offers remarkably intuitive insights to human personality and spirtuality. I came to Nancy because of her reputation as "Saturn's Return Expert." The chart she produced to help guide me through this period was remarkably on target, and I use it still as reference and guidance.”
Top qualities: Expert, High Integrity, Creative

Jon Layton, Astrologer, Skygroovesworked indirectly for Nancy at BeMyAstrologer
“I took Nancy's Tarot class and was so pleased with the results. Her insights into the symbolism and history of the cards was impressive. The lessons enriched my understanding of the human psyche, and her explanations illuminated the human condition.”
Top qualities: Great Results, Expert, High Integrity

BirthChart MacKEnzie Phillips

2009-09-25T23:08:00.000-07:00

I think there's no doubt she's telling the truth - two major transits practically scream it - Saturn approaching the NNode and IC (DArk Night of the Soul) plus Pluto coming up on Saturn in the house of secret love affairs. In clearing this up, she is Virgo-ing her own Pisces (Nodes). That Stellium in the 4th - the old man definitely did her. Now she can heal.

Natally, Aries Moon in the 9th is a truth teller.

Zodiac Sign Traits from an Astrological Aqua Man

2009-09-24T13:22:00.000-07:00

He just visited "ZodiacTraits" to learn about compatiblity.

Dear Nancy,

I found you very spot on about sign compatibilities in astrology. Many things that you have said are really original and no others have dared to say specially about compatibility of virgo and aquarius and scorpio and aquarius. If you allow me, I will make my comment on each of your aquarius compatibility pages. (my astrological knowledge comes from years of experience with my patients).

AquaMan

The Sympathetic "Other Woman" Survey

2009-09-23T17:34:00.000-07:00

age =: 34

name for married lover: Romeo

make up a name for you: Juliet

how did your relationship get started =: I am a veterinary technician, he was the doc and owner of the practice. I was married for 12 years and my husband was abusive. Not that this is any excuse. I was going through an emotional struggle. I had tried to leave 2 other times and stayed bc he promised to change. He just continued to be the same. I was hurting and hated going home bc I knew it was tense. I loved my job. We had recently moved to this new town to get a new start, so I left my job of 10 yrs and started working for Romeo. Things just went back to the way they were and I knew no one out here in the country. I became really good friends withthe girls at work and really began to respect the doc. When I first interviewed w/ him I thought he was very strange. Months later we became close, joking with one another, talking over surgery and he taught me a lot of things about the business and in depth things about surgery and so on. Although I have been in the field for 10 years, I didn't work much with the surgeries. Needless to say, we all began going out on thurs nights for an hour or so. The doc bought us all a round of drinks and we would chat, play pool and just relax. It was nice to get away. Romeo had a lot of respect for me, I brought a lot of ideas to his business from the large practice I worked at before, and helped out with client services and how to educate clients better to get them to use all of his services. We just made a good team, and became best friends over time and one night it happened. We both had made flirtation jokes, but I had a few drinks and spilled my guts a little that if he wasn't married...and then he kissed me. The next working day was weird bc we were not sure what the other was going to say. It just went on from there. It was exciting and I enjoyed being appreciated. Over time, I fell deeply in love with him more and more as days went on. As far as his wife goes, the truth is I could never stand the way she acted towards him. There were times she would come in their with hi s best friend and they would come up front together (the friend)and were all over each other. She didn't talk to her husband very respectful either. I jsut felt like we shared this together, the lack of appreciation and disrespect from our spouses. I am a very sensitive person, and I am very compassionate. I am not a mean person, I swear! I have times where I feel so bad about this, and then other times I feel bad for him. I do understand why this happend. We were both emotionally unhappy in our marriages.Needless to say, we were caught by my husband. I had already told him I wanted a divorce, he moved out. One day he left work early and came back to the house and we were "together". It was humiliating, embarassing, scary and regretful. It has been almost 2 years now, and we are still together. My divorce has been final for a while, but his is still going on. She is dragging it out and has pulled some nasty tricks on him. They both have businesses, so there is a lot to settle. They went through counseling and were going to try to work it out, I lost my job of course. I have been supportive of whatever he needs to do. I do not like being the cause of the divorce. I just want him to be happy, even if that means with her. I do truly believe he loves me, and I do not think he wants to be with her. She uses scare tactics and guilt and belittling him to do the right thing and not divorce. I do understand I really have no right to get mad bc I did this to myself. I have broken it off with him and told him he needs to decide what he really wants and I should not be in the way if he loves her. He just comes back pleading his love for me and he wants to be with me, he just hates hurting her and needs to be easy with her. They do not live together and haven't for over a year. He still jumps through hoops to please her if she makes a request, even if it means me sitting at home alone. I suppose this is what I get. I didn't do this to be malicious. I truly love this man and would do anything for him. When we are together, it is just wonderful. It isn't forced, it is just natural for us. We enjoy each others company. We can not say anything and just sit and hold hands and it just feels right no matter what we are doing. I have to say, I am having my doubts now about the relationship. I am getting impatient and feeling guilty that the divorce is still not final. I am wondering if maybe his feelings are stronger than he realized and he just doesn't know which way to go. He is 25 yrs older than me and this bothers him. I get a lot of flack for it from others, so does he. Mainly our ex's. She tells him he is an old man and looks silly walking around with me. Anyway, I would do anything for him. Including walking away peacefully if he wants to work things out with his wife. It will hurt, but I would not want to be the choice he regrets. Honestly, I feel bad for the situation bc it has hurt so many people. Including myself. This has been one of the most painful experieces of my life. However, I do not regret my own divorce, it should have happened a long time ago. I just want peace in my life. I am so torm on whether to walk or hold on. He tells me he is going through with this divorce and he can't live without me. He has tried and everytime he tries to, he realizes how much he loves me. I sometimes feel foolish like it is never going to happen. As you can tell, I am very hurt and confused and do not know what to do. I do not want to lose his love, at the same time I do not want to be taken for granted.

would you do it again = : If this does not work out, I assure you I will never cross that line again. I would not even date a man who is going through divorce, ever!
never done this before =: No, he had stepped out of the marriage once before. He was upfront about this.

did he have any kids =: His kids are older and out of the house.It would not have mattered.
did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: I knew his wife from coming into the office, and she went out with us all one evening. She was very snobby from day 1, and thought of us employees as just nobody's. She was very short with all of us as if we were stupid.

did you ever contact his wife = : I would never contact her. It is not my place.

spend a lot of money on you =: I am just a simple girl. I am not into expensive things. He takes me to dinner and he has bought me things, but I really just enjoy his time!

what did he promise you =: Things would be ok.
　
did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: I would love to marry him. I do not think he is a bad guy, and I do not think he is a player. I think he is a respectable man that is tired of being worn down and degrated. Nothing he does is evern good enough for her. I do not hear this from him, I have seen it with her in the office and the majority of the town has said she has always done him this way. They say he shoud have left her a long time ago. He still defends her and says she can't help it, or it isn't as bad as what people say. He takes responsibility for his onw short comings too. This is one of the reasons I love him. He is a good man and tries to see the best in people. He is not judgemental and takes responsibility for his own doings. He is a good man.

are you still in contact with him = : yes

did you have an abortion or a child =: no

did you date others =: I have went on a few dates when he went back to his wife. I realized quickly, it was pointless and you can't date when you are in love with someone else. It isn't fair to the other person either.

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : Don't do it! If the marriage is really over, they will get out anyway. Then if you are available at the same time, you can date. Affairs are painful for all involved. Not just the obvious, but your children, your extended family and your friends. No one likes to see peole they love in pain. Everyone makes mistakes, and once you cross that line the feelings get deeper and it is messy. The guilt alone is heartbreaking and very depressing. Even if your partners significant other doesn't seem to love them, they still built that life together and you assisted in tearing it down.

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: I would feel like a hypocrite, but I would want to know how long. There is a difference in having a sexual affair and someone he is actually in love with. I would not want to be married to a man in love with someone else and one I could not trust. However, I would ask this same person if they have ever crossed the line, or even thought about it. I think you have to look deep into the marriage and ask why. Are you married just for the sake of not losing money, a house and there is no emotional bond? I think if deep down you are not really happy, you shouldn't stay. You are cheating them and yourself, and your kids. If all you do is fight, or even have no communication, what kind of example are you setting of a "loving healthy relationship".

why do you tnink men have affairs =: I think there are different situations. He was missing appreciation, sincerity, passion and communication.

did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: Yes

where how often regularly =: In the office, his house, my house, the park, lunches.

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: My closest friend, I worked with her. She figured it out. She said she did not condone it, but she understood. She said it was obvious there were fellings between us.

what did you learn =: I have learned a lot. I can truly say I have learned a lot about love, myself and lines that should not be crossed. I can say before this man, I am not sure I have ever really been in love. The things I have been willing to sacrifice for him, the pain involved, the time I have put into this without knowing the outcome, it is like I am dieing inside between my love for him, my guilt for the situation, the things I have lost and the situation I have put myself in. I have 4 children who I love dearly and I do not like the example I have set and the situation they have experienced. He will always be my hero for making me see I did not deserve the abuse,and giving me the confidence to leave. My kids are happier children now that they do not have to live that life. However, I am not happy with the other things he has done. Stringing me along sometimes, my life is in limbo. Although I would never do this again, I do not regret our time together. I felt love for the first time. I know he loves me and has treated me better than any man ever has. The stringing along is just him being unable to decide what to do between his love for me and his responsibility to the promise he made so many years ago. I am not naive, I see the pain he is going through and he would be giving up a lot. If he were able to just up and leave for someone else without giving it any thought, I would be scared.

Saturn in Libra

2009-09-21T21:24:00.001-07:00

You are best to use your Libra energy as an Adept and as Athena. I will explain.

As an Adept
The temple always has black and white squares, not grey. This symbolizes the polarities such as good and evil, one you are intimately involved with .

In freemasonry the temple floor is always black and white. This is to symbolize the alternating of yin and yang energies and one of the Laws of the Universe: All things are always changing to their opposites.

Like the High Priestess you sit between the black and white pillars , Joachim and Boaz. You mediate for the collective.

This touches upon every single one of the 7 Hermetic Principles

THE SEVEN HERMETIC PRINCIPLES

I. THE PRINCIPLE OF MENTALISM - "THE ALL is MIND; The Universe is Mental."

II. THE PRINCIPLE OF CORRESPONDENCE - "As above, so below; as below, so above."

III. THE PRINCIPLE OF VIBRATION - "Nothing rests; everything moves; everything vibrates."

IV. THE PRINCIPLE OF POLARITY - "Everything is Dual; everything has poles; everything has its pair of opposites; like and unlike are the same; opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree; extremes meet; all truths are but half-truths; all paradoxes may be reconciled."

V. THE PRINCIPLE OF RHYTHM - "Everything flows, out and in; everything has its tides; all things rise and fall; the pendulum swing manifests in everything; the measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left; rhythm compensates."

VI. THE PRINCIPLE OF CAUSE AND EFFECT - "Every Cause has its Effect; every Effect has its Cause; everything happens according to Law; Chance is but a name for Law not recognized; there are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes the Law." [also see Emerson's Essay on Compensation, free eBook on my site]

VII. THE PRINCIPLE OF GENDER - "Gender is in everything; everything has its Masculine and Feminine Principles; Gender manifests on all planes "

If you work these laws to their utmost as an Adept, you alternate so fast between black and white, it seems like you are doing nothing, standing still. This card shows the Goddess in charge of keeping the planets in their orbit by just such eternal motion/vibration or equilibriating , a higher octave of the High Priestess, usually called Justice and card XI. Here from the Crowley deck. She stands absolutely motionless which is an illusion.

She is like mighty Oya of the Niger River. Because Oya dances, I am and you are. If this woman stopped her mediating the world would collapse into chaos. Think of yourself that way.

As Athena
A final image that comes to mind is the goddess Athena. She is the ultimate Libran, a father’s daughter, a smart strategist, a fearless warrior of just wars, hating war and wanting to get it over with quickly when necessary.

You know all this. What makes it so appropriate for you, however, is the Medusa or Gorgon’s head she always carries on her breastplate.

For your free Saturn Return in Libra reading, go here.

Carl Jung's "Red Book" is Being Published Next Week - See Jung's Horoscope

2009-09-21T16:03:00.000-07:00

Photo of Jung at age 6 [wiki fair trade photo]

Carl Jung's "Red Book" is being published next week, the thrill of a lifetime for Jungian's everywhere.

Learn more .... Sara Corbett has an outstanding article in the NY Times, The Holy Grail of the Unconscious.

What is happening in Jung's chart? Neptune is RIGHT ON his 1st house Saturn, an exact hit at 24 degrees Aquarius. This will change his image forever.

His Midheaven just progressed over his North Node, bringing his professional reputation forward.

I would imagine it would be thrilling to loosen up a first house Saturn in Aquarius.

If you have a 1st house Saturn, write me for some free materials nancy@bemyguide.net It's a tough placement.

Marlon Brando - Saturn in Scorpio

2009-09-20T13:54:00.001-07:00

photo from wiki [fair use] Marlon Brando on the set of "Streetcar Named Desire"

Marlon Brando had Saturn in Scorpio. Eeven in his late interview with Larry King, he was reticent to reveal any personal information.

Here's an excerpt from an essay by Truman Capote, Portraits and Observations:

"Brando has not forgotten Bud. When he speaks of the boy he was, the boy seems to inhabit him. "My mother was everything to me. I used to come home from school ..." He hesitated, as though waiting for me to picture him scuffling along an afternoon street. "There wouldn't be anybody home. Nothing in the icebox." Lantern slides: empty rooms, a kitchen. "Then the telephone would ring. Some bar. 'We've got a lady down here. You better come get her.'" The image leaped forward in time. Bud is 18, and: "I thought if she loved me enough, trusted me enough, we'll live together and I'll take care of her. Once, later on, that really happened. She left my father and came to live with me in New York, when I was in a play. I tried so hard. But my love wasn't enough. She couldn't care enough. She went back. And one day" - his voice grew flatter, yet the emotional pitch ascended - "I didn't care any more. She was there. In a room. Holding on to me. And I let her fall. Because I couldn't take it any more - watch her breaking apart, like a piece of porcelain. I stepped right over her. I walked right out. Since then, I've been indifferent."

Read more here ... http://thisrecording.com/today/2009/7/24/in-which-marlon-brando-met-truman-capote.html

Thought Provoking

2009-09-16T12:11:00.000-07:00

Beauty no accident.

The beauty of a race or family, their grace and graciousness in all gestures, is won by work: like genius, it is the end result of the accumulated work of generations. One must have made great sacrifices to good taste, one must have done much and omitted much for its sake – seventeenth-century France is admirable in both respects – and good taste must have furnished a principle for selecting company, place, dress, sexual satisfaction; one must have preferred beauty to advantage, habit, opinion, and inertia. Supreme rule of conduct: before oneself too, one must not “let oneself go.” The good things are immeasurably costly; and the law always holds that those who have them are different than those who acquire them. All that is good is inherited: whatever is not inherited is imperfect, is a mere beginning.

In Athens, in the time of Cicero, who expresses his surprise about this, the men and youths were far superior in beauty to the women. But what work and exertion in the service of beauty had the male sex there imposed on itself for centuries! For one should make no mistake about the method in this case: a breeding of feelings and thoughts alone is almost nothing (this is the great misunderstanding underlying German education, which is wholly illusory): one must first persuade the body. Strict perseverance in significant and exquisite gestures together with the obligation to live only with people who do not “let themselves go” – that is quite enough for one to become significant and exquisite, and in two or three generations all this becomes inward. It is decisive for the lot of a people and of humanity that culture should begin in the right place – not in the “soul” (as was the fateful superstition of the priests and half-priests): the right place is the body, the gesture, the diet, physiology; the rest follows from that. Therefore the Greeks remain the first cultural event in history: they knew, they did, what was needed; and Christianity, which despised the body, has been the greatest misfortune of humanity so far.

[Nietzsche via my Greek friend, Niko]

Rose Marie Carlino Bill is seeking Alex Torres

2009-09-14T19:32:00.000-07:00

Rose Marie Carlino Bill is urgently seeking word of or from Alex Torres.

Please contact Rose Marie at KRBRB@aol.com

To Aall Cancers Everywhere and Especially Saturn in Cancer

2009-09-12T10:29:00.000-07:00

I love the sheltering heart

the sky-wide soul

that makes sure the child in line isn't overlooked,

that sees the turn signal and let's you in,

or notices someone staring into a handful of change and says"Can I help? It's no trouble."

The heart that grabs your hand,

looks you straight in the eye and says,"Look at me. I can see you are hurting.We have to talk."

Then holds all your convoluted ramblings,

your emotional injuries,like they're tangled necklaces

of rubies and pearls,

sorts them patiently

,and smilingly places them all around your necklike you're the princess

with a silly, wet kiss.

The heart that, in a crowded foyer,

isn't rushing for the door,

but scanning the crowd for tiny people,

pregnant women, the wispy elder with a cane,

and not afraid to say loudly,"Easy does it, watch out for your neighbor."
The heart that like a big umbrella,sits through endless, boring community meetings,to be able to

say,"Is the playground still budgeted in?

Can we plant some trees near those benches?

Put a light and a phone booth near that bus stop?

A recycle bin near the picnic tables?"

Looking out for everyone.

A sensitive heart

that asks one last time,"Are you sure you fed the dog?

Do you need anything from the store?

Would you like the last brownie?"

I love the sheltering heart,

whose peace increases with giving

which feels everyone's unspoken needs

fine-tuning the instrument of true living.

Ah, do I love the sheltering heart.

Sayyeda Claire Costello Barry [presumed to be the author]

Zodiac Sign Compatibility

2009-09-09T05:44:00.000-07:00

Zodiac Sign Compatibility is the place to visit to see if you "match up"? Just how compatible are you? Compatibility is based on much deeper issues than traditional sun sign readings. Visit my site for uncanny insights.

Going Around the Email - Really Clever

2009-08-30T18:37:00.000-07:00

I don't know who wrote these but they are priceless:

I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing.

More often than not, when someone is telling me a story all I can think about is that I can't wait for them to finish so that I can tell my own story

That's not only better, but also more directly involves me.

Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

I don't understand the purpose of the line, "I don't need to drink to have fun." Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they've invented the lighter?

Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you're going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you're crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

The letters T and G are very close to each other on a keyboard. This recently became all too apparent to me and consequently I will never be ending a work email with the phrase "Regards" again.

Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn't work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ's. We just figured it out. Today's kids are soft.

There is a great need for sarcasm font.

Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f*** was going on when I first saw it.

I think everyone has a movie that they love so much; it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I'll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone's

laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I'm still the only one who really, really gets it.

How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.

A recent study has shown that playing beer pong contributes to the spread of mono and the flu. Yeah, if you suck at it.

Was learning cursive really necessary?

Lol has gone from meaning, "laugh out loud" to "I have nothing else to say".

I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

Answering the same letter three times or more in a row on a Scantron test is absolutely petrifying.

My brother's Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, "Cuz we beat you, and you hate us." Classy, bro.

Whenever someone says "I'm not book smart, but I'm street smart", all I hear is "I'm not real smart, but I'm imaginary smart".

How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear what they said?

I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it...thanks Mario Kart.

MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. Pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.

Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

Bad decisions make good stories

Whenever I'm Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don't mind if I do!

Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

If Carmen San Diego and Waldo ever got together, their offspring would probably just be completely invisible.

Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I'm from; this shouldn't be a problem....

You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren't doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don't want to have to restart my collection.

There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

"Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.

I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV. There's so much pessure. 'I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we

Weren't watng this. It's only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?'

While watching the Olympics, I find myself cheering equally for China and USA . No, I am not of Chinese descent, but I am fairly certain that when Chinese athletes don't win, they are so executed.

I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Darnit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What'd you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

When I meet a new girl, I'm terrified of mentioning something she hasn't already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.

I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it's on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles...

As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

I think that if, years down the road when I'm trying to have a kid, I find out that I'm sterile, most of my disappointment will stem from the fact that I was not aware of my condition in college.

Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn't know what do to with it.

Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my a$$ everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time...

My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day "Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?" How the hell do I respond to that?

It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.

I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.

I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lites than Kay.

The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to

think about it, and then estimate d that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There's nothing like being made to feel like a fat b@st@rd before dinner.

The Sympathetic Other Woman Survey

2009-08-27T07:58:00.000-07:00

age =: 41

name for married lover: Jo

make up a name for you: Mary

how did your relationship get started =: A music audition in 2002. He (aged 42 then) a very level-headed, intresting, learned, encouraging fun person to be around. We struck up a really good friendship, sharing fuel money he gave me a lift to our weekly music rehearsals as he would pass the top of my road and the venue was quite some distance away. Over time we would talk about anything and everything, never a dull moment just great company... but him definately "not my type".. so I thought! > a devout vegetarian, non-smoking-drinking-caffeine-free, well over 6ft tall (I am only 5ft 1")and fashioning John Lennon type spectacles.

At a friends party where he was playing (summer 2003) the next day amidst tents and log fires we had the most amazing BIG hug, little did I know, nor he I'm sure that this would be the 1st of so many, after that - everytime we met up or said farewell we would hug, it was lovely.

Sadly in 2004 he left our misic scene to concentrate on another music project but we (9 musicians) had for that year been putting down music and lyrics to make a cd, he had a recording studio at his house. Throughout the autumn and into December, the hugs became longer, more intense and harder to pull away, I did tell him that I had fantasised about him on occasion and his hugging me close confirmed that surely this must be ok?

how long did it last =: Our friendship started in 2002 and became physical in 9th January 2005 until 29th June 2008..(3 and a half years)

how did it end =: Terribly! If being completely cut off can be called an ending?
He and his wife bought a motorhome and went travelling in January 2008 for 6 months and we (friends and relations etc) would recieve emails of their whereabouts and what they had seen and done.

Painful as it was for me and I didn't know when he would return as we had left the relationship "open".. the emails and IM's and texts started to come from him, telling me how much he missed and loved and so wanted to be with me around March time while he was in France then Spain then Portugal.

In May he sent word that they were returning and he asked that I book us somewhere for a few days so that we could be together.. be complete!

Arriving back 5th June 2008, we decided to wait and meet up at the beautiful converted barn I had booked for the Midsummer weekend 20th-22nd June 2008.
Too painful for me to put down still.. it was wonderful, soulmates, lovers like no others and complete > then it was time to go back to reality!

I could go on and on and on some more but what trnspired was that he told his wife he had fallen in love with me and he wanted me to be in his life ( he really thought she would understand and allow this, brave man eh? ) No! She said she would resent this and he flipped I guess in realisation.. he didn't need to work, monies were invested in the house and he was "comfortable" and his mother-in-law had given them £50.000.

I went to see him ( he alone at his parents and his wife gone to her mothers as they were renting their house while travelling ) the day after he disclosed our relationship and it was heartbreaking, I tried to touch him and he asked me not to, I shaking and fighting nausea.. he picked up his guitar and played songs, songs that meant so much to us whilst tears streamed down our faces. The phone rang and it was Relate, I had no idea that in just those 24hrs they were on the road to reconciling.. I walked away

would you do it again = : With him? Given a chance...Yes! I know, love and understand him more than anyone, we were tranparent with everything that we said and did.

never done this before =: Yes, he had a brief affair with a woman that I know years back, she never recovered and a divorce came soon after. Also a one night "touch and feel" with a musician friend... both previous to myself.
Funny thing is, he is so honest about himself and thats the part I loved so much

did he have any kids =: No children, he had the snip years back

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: Sure, I knew his wife. I quite liked her, but didn't take the time in getting to know her, she is quite learned also but childlike and naive in the "worldly" sense,few friends and a recluse in a way. Together they are a strange pair really, more a brother and sister relationship, she has a few mental issues and fibromyalgia and sex or communication at times were limited... not a good recipe for a very passionate man I guess.

did you ever contact his wife = : Certainly I tried to contact her when all went "tits up!" Instead I ended up meeting her mother at her house as ("they" has gone away)and giving my side of the story all copies of emails, dvd's we had made and every momentoe I had.
I look back and think it partly shitty but mostly in truth, that all should be known.

spend a lot of money on you =: No, he is very careful with money, he bought me an icecream once and paid for a meal on our "weekend" together.

what did he promise you =: That he would love me forever and we would NEVER say goodbye...

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: Marry him? No way... he'd drive me nuts!!
But to be in his life, we were magical together - continuing the affair would have been wonderful, but love and wanting to be together more and more drove him away.

are you still in contact with him = : On our years anniversary I received 4 anonymous emails over a week >>

1 : Hi ****

Ted Kennedy, Horoscope, A Sweet Soul Ascends

2009-08-26T16:05:00.000-07:00

What was Senator Kennedy here to accomplish. This is revealed by the Dragon's Head in karmic astrology.

You be the judge. Did he get the job done?

Traditionally the Dragon’s Head in Pisces connotes an individual with great vitality and good fortune with children. The Dragon’s Tail in Virgo indicates trouble with the mental side of life. It may mean a hyper critical attitude that leaves no room for appreciation of beauty.

In past lifetimes, you were uber picky, even judgmental, and you bring this perspective with you into this incarnation. But it will pass away as you grow older. The longer you live, the more you will realize how rigid you have been. There is a world beyond what you can sense, and following the information you receive from your higher guidance will allow you to transcend the limits that have kept you in a prison of your own making.

Your need for structure is so great that you may make yourself sick with tension. You are prone to bouts of nervousness and irritability. There is only one cure: plunge into the cosmic ocean. Stop thinking and start feeling. Here is where your healing begins. You are probably asking yourself as you read this, “How does that work?” You must avoid exactly that type of analysis if you are to find happiness in this world.

You were born with an innate sense of danger. You are distrustful of the world and question the qualifications of experts and others who attempt to make sense of our physical surroundings. You may even fear that everything foreign brings disease. The only antidote is faith.

Many people with this node placement have sexuality issues. T hey may be physically present but emotionally absent during intercourse. You may go through periods of sexual deprivation.

You incarnated to ponder the mystery of how each individual is part of the Cosmic Whole. Each person is a cosmos unto himself, yet each is a discrete and unique piece of the universe. You must stop perceiving separateness and meditate on interconnectivity. If you are stubborn and resist this lesson, all your carefully laid plans will fall apart.

At your worst, you are stubborn and scattered at the same time. You are incapable of setting priorities, and may have self-destructive tendencies. Perhaps in childhood you were shamed or taught guilt, for it is typical of Pisces North Noders to live with such feelings buried deep inside them.

At your best you are a healer, using means metaphysical or conventional, such as Mary Baker Eddy, Edgar Cayce, Florence Nightingale, and Jonas Salk, who share this node placement. Or you might use the energy to reach out to others in distress, like Pisces North Noders Bob Geldof and Dian Fossey.

Sadly, many people with this node are so critical that they do not even like themselves. This makes relationships difficult, for no matter who you are with, you are always there, too. It is not uncommon for these individuals to become workaholics, which allows them to avoid relating for the most part, or to stay in destructive relationships since they are so terrified of being alone. In addition, an unbalanced Virgo South Node person may be bigoted, impossible to please, critical of others, and petty.

Water sports, especially fishing, may enhance your life greatly. Magic or the arts are also good. Imaginative writing can be beneficial, as well as an interest in medicine or literature. Good jobs for you include sales, painting, interior decorating, chef, and gymnast. Avoid any career which requires you to focus too heavily on details.

It is important that you come to accept yourself as you are and to ponder your place in this vast universe of ours. You fear emotional connections with others, yet this is your path to enlightenment. Feel. Have faith. Trust in your instincts. Do this and you will achieve your greatest potential: saving others.

Order your report todayy.

"The Other Woman" Survey

2009-08-25T20:21:00.000-07:00

age =: 48

name for married lover: James

make up a name for you: Jillian

how did your relationship get started =: we're both teachers at the same high school. We were friends for a year first.

how long did it last =: It has been going on for one year now

how did it end =: It hasn't ended but is a bit rocky at the moment.

would you do it again = : yes. i love him.

never done this before =: He said he had done it before but it was "very minor" compared to what we have.

did he have any kids =: He has three kids. A son, 23 and living at home, a daughter in her junior year at college, and a son just graduated from high school and living at home.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: Met his wife briefly once when I bumped into both of them while shopping.

did you ever contact his wife = : never contacted his wife

spend a lot of money on you =: never spent money on me. no need to.

what did he promise you =: promised me nothing but great sex and friendship.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: I tell him I want to just continue the affair, but deep down I would love to see him get divorced.

are you still in contact with him = : I see him every day at school. His classroom is only two doors down from mine.

did you have an abortion or a child =: no

did you date others =: nothing serious. a dinner here and there.

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : Be prepared for your heart to be completely shattered and your life to become a roller-coaster of emotion.

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: Leave him! Even if he says he'll never do it again, he most definitely will as soon as he feels the coast is clear.

why do you tnink men have affairs =: He said the sex had become infrequent. She is deeply religious and he wants more exciting sex.

did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: no. i simply enjoy every moment i have with him.

where how often regularly =: Every day in my classroom at school and always at my house for actual intercourse. Last year we met regularly for sex, about once or twice every couple of weeks, sometimes more. This school year his coaching schedule is crazy. I don't know when I will be able to have sex with him---it will be random.

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: I broke down and told a friend at school. Their reaction was that he is only using me and playing with my emotions.

what did you learn =: I have learned that I am indeed nothing more than a trainwreck continuing to smolder.

A Reading with Nancy

2009-08-23T11:54:00.001-07:00

"Thank you so much for your insight tonight. As always, you have the ability to whoosh away the fog and let in clear thought. Everything just rang so true and felt so right. I could just envision everything you suggested."
MC in Chicago

Stressed?

2009-08-23T11:43:00.000-07:00

[C]hronic stress reduces cellular plasticity (including neurogenesis), which might make us (and mice) more likely to settle into familiar ruts and routines. The end result is that people stick with the very behaviors that created the stress in the first place.

Jonah Leher, Wired
See also: http://scienceblogs.com/cortex/2009/08/the_stress_spiral.php

That's why a change of scene is so powerful. Inner change of mental landscape with meditation. Outer change with travel.

Pisces and Virgo

2009-08-21T13:52:00.000-07:00

Pisces, the Dreamer, with Saaturn in Virgo, learns the virtues of work (Virgo). Work = Sanity
[from a reader]

?Nancy, I didn't mean to leave the impression that I was mad about having to keep working. The truth is, it's a lifesaver, and I mean that literally. I remember when I was young I could spend hours looking at the clouds in the sky or at blades of grass, and it was like time didn't really exist. Even in my 20s and 30s, I used to love to come home to a quiet apartment, turn in the TV, and spend the rest of the day watching it and listening to music. I was like a fish in a bowl of water. But on my 41st birthday, the day of my breakup with Xxx, things abruptly changed. I found that I could no longer stand to have time on my hands and nothing to do. I dreaded approaching the door of my apartment. I was now a fish OUT of water. I kept thinking about what I should have said or shouldn't have said, or what I should have done or shouldn't have done. So I am indeed grateful for having a job, not that I particularly like the work and though I know it's costing me money each day I do work, and it's probably even dangerous to work, so that my mind doesn't have to be constantly filled with those terrible thoughts."

Do you have planets on the Virgo Pisces axis? Do you identify with this statement?

Zodiac Sign T raits

2009-08-21T00:36:00.000-07:00

They visiited www.zodiacsigntraits.com :

"This is a great site, Nancy. I read the Leo man and Gemini woman compatability. It was dead on. Congrats on an excellent site!!!!"

"The Scorpio Man-Pisces Woman description is great. I'm a Pisces woman that's been with a Scorpio man for almost 12 years and you described our dynamic very well. This part is especially accurate: "Degree of Passion: This is one relationship where Scorpio is willing to show his tumultuous passions. Pisces provides the oceanic depths for him ... Read Moreto float on comfortably. He will be willing to reveal layer upon layer of feeling which he usually keeps to himself. His guard drops as she soothes and comforts him, reassuring the scorpion that all his secrets are fine with her. As his fears alleviate, his behavior becomes increasingly more romantic and passionate."

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9th House History

2009-08-21T00:33:00.000-07:00

It occurred to me that the election of our 44th president ended our karma as a British colony. The European countries didn't have slavery; they stuck that on their coloonies.

Julia Child's Astrology Chart

2009-08-16T17:35:00.000-07:00

I think Julia Child's show the painfulness of Saturn on the Ascendant and how to rise above it [awkwardness, speech imppediment, and other physical attributes challenging to overcome].

Baby P

2009-08-15T13:55:00.000-07:00

This is a morphed imagine of me and my Beloved, if we were to have had a child together. I did this on www.morphthing.com for free.

About Your Astrologer

2009-08-11T13:52:00.000-07:00

From a client ... "As I said before I know a thimble full and I can see the layers and the depth you need to know...you deserve the prices you charge."

Annie Liebovitz and John hughes -Boomers Bust

2009-08-07T10:16:00.000-07:00

Nancy R. Fenn

Annie Liebovitz, 59, and John Hughes, d., 59, have had the worst kind of second Saturn Return. If you are between the ages of 58 and 60 like these two boomers, contact me for a free mini second Saturn Return reading nancy@bemyguide.net .

I am probably the best Saturn Return astrologer you will ever find. This is my specialty. I'd love to be your astrologer. Give me a chance to impress you with a FREE mini reading about this life changing transit. Complete thos form and submit www.bemyastrologer.com/form.html

The Astrological Sarah Palin

2009-08-04T10:49:00.000-07:00

From a Reader

Nancy...was looking for info on Palin's chart and found you in my Google search. You wrote the following on Sept 1.

"No I would not say she's lucky except in the sense of lucky fluke (Uranus) and I'll tell you why. Because even this much is going to cost her something very precious as a person and that is because it is actually a bit off her path. She has karma going on here. What seems so lucky now will probably result in a complete self-destruct later on and an abrupt end to her career. Do you doubt? Well, nothing is certain but perhaps some things are written. As an astrologer I can't be more specific about the events that will occur but only that they will."

I was actually looking to see if I could find a valid birth time. I was working on a transit chart for someone who has Uranus transiting her 10th house. I was reading Robert Hand's interpretation and the moment I read "You may be tempted to throw the whole job over, to quit and start off in a new direction." The image of Palin popped into my head so strongly that I wondered if she might have Uranus transiting her tenth house right now. Saturn opposing Uranus would be in her 4th house indicative of her family issues.

Anyway, just wanted to say that I find you comments from Sept 1 on target!

Michael Jackson and The Elephant Man

2009-08-03T12:49:00.000-07:00

I think for a deeper understanding of VIrgo/Uranus/Pluto drive to perfection andUranus denial of the natural human, in Michaell Jackson consider this quote by the man on Oprah: " That's another stupid story [that he tried to buy John Merrick's skeleton]. I love the story of the Elephant man. He reminds me of me a lot, and I could relate to it. It made me cry because I saw myself in the story, but no, I never asked for the—[skeleton]...." How revealing and it's an incredible movie.

Merrick died at the approach of his first Saturn Return. I think Dr. Trevves was an INFP.

Free eZine Mailing List

2009-08-01T10:00:00.000-07:00

I lost my free ezine mailing list -- I send out timely updates to clients. I am recreating it from memory. If you want on please let me know.

My KIVA Account kiva.org

2009-07-31T18:57:00.000-07:00

I love participating in KIVA micro lending especially to other women entrepreneurs like me.

Google KIVA and find out how you can participate for as little as $25.

Nancy R. Fenn, Let Me Be Your Astrologer

2009-07-28T21:55:00.000-07:00

Let me be YOUR astrologer.

Pluto Cycles

2009-07-28T14:23:00.000-07:00

The neighborhood mailman is being transferred after being in this neighborhood since 1996. In 1996 Pluto entered Sg. Last year it entered Capricorn. We are all having mega changes. What about you?

Let Me Be Your Astrologer

2009-07-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

She just got her strological report ... have you had yours?

Nancy,

Thank you so much for this beautiful, insightful glimpse into who is hiding beneath the surface of my being. You clearly are incredibly gifted intuitively and the things you were able to glean from my astrological chart really blow all those cookie cutter computerized reports (my only experience with astrology in the past) out of the water. I really feel a tremendous amount of clarity about life purpose and direction after having read this. It was also exactly what I was thinking about in a tiny corner of my mind that I was afraid to really shine light onto for fear that it was an illusion that would disappear if I looked directly at it. Here is the confirmation of those suspicions that I so dearly needed. I feel tremendous gratitude for being drawn to your website and the reading was certainly worth much more money than I paid for it. I can't wait to read the books you've recommended.

Katherine (Texas)

Timely Quote from Susan Dunn

2009-07-22T13:45:00.000-07:00

"The stock market is the most emotional thing there is."
~Susan Dunn

Mockingbird Yeah T Shirt

2009-07-22T11:03:00.001-07:00

Word

2009-07-20T13:37:00.000-07:00

"Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines." Satchel Paige

Lunar and Solar Eclipses

2009-07-18T12:23:00.000-07:00

List of Solar and Lunar Eclipses

- 2009 -
Solar Eclipse Jan 26 2009 7:59 06° Aquarius 30'
Lunar Eclipse Feb 9 2009 14:37 20° Leo 59'
Lunar Eclipse Jul 7 2009 9:38 15° Capricorn 25'
Solar Eclipse Jul 22 2009 2:35 29° Cancer 27'
Lunar Eclipse Aug 6 2009 0:39 13° Aquarius 43'
Lunar Eclipse Dec 31 2009 19:21 10° Cancer 15'

- 2010 -
Solar Eclipse Jan 15 2010 7:06 25° Capricorn 01'
Lunar Eclipse Jun 26 2010 11:37 04° Capricorn 46'
Solar Eclipse Jul 11 2010 19:33 19° Cancer 24'
Lunar Eclipse Dec 21 2010 8:16 29° Gemini 21'

- 2011 -
Solar Eclipse Jan 4 2011 8:49 13° Capricorn 38'
Solar Eclipse Jun 1 2011 21:15 11° Gemini 02'
Lunar Eclipse Jun 15 2011 20:11 24° Sagittarius 23'
Solar Eclipse Jul 1 2011 8:38 09° Cancer 12'
Solar Eclipse Nov 25 2011 6:20 02° Sagittarius 37'
Lunar Eclipse Dec 10 2011 14:31 18° Gemini 11'

Eclipses act like adding a new background color to a tapestry for 6 months. Things stay the same but they really change.

Find out how an eclipse will affect you. Order the ECLIPSE REPORT for $25, fully individualized report, not computer generated. Send your request to nancy@bemyguide.net Please include date, time and place of birth.

There are 3 eclipses in July 2009 -- very unusual -- beginning a new Saros series of eclipses in the signs Cancer and Capricorn. Find out what this means to you.

Nobody Shakes Obama's Hand ??

2009-07-18T09:40:00.000-07:00

Emerging from a meeting with the Russians, Obama is gesturing an introduction, not "being ignored".

Ask Nancy!!

2009-07-15T12:10:00.000-07:00

ASK NANCY!!

Do you have a question about zodiac sign traits? http://zodiacsigntraits.com/ask-nancy.html

Only zodiac sign trait and general astrology sign questions, please!

Tonoy Blair EU President

2009-07-15T12:09:00.000-07:00

Tony Blair for EU President !! a Whole New Generation of World Politics !

The "Sympathetic" Other Woman Survey

2009-07-10T22:19:00.000-07:00

age =: 23

name for married lover: Adam

make up a name for you: Alyssa

how did your relationship get started =: We met on campus at college, he was in a couple of my writing classes. We started meeting in between class to talk, we both began to look forward to it. We started emailing each other and finally admitted our attraction. There was always a spark between us, and I felt drawn to him. A May-December romance, I am 23, he is 46.

how long did it last =: on going. It has been about 4 months.

how did it end =: on going.

would you do it again = : yes.

never done this before =: He's had affairs before. I believe, he is a chronic philanderer. I don't know that this bothers me because I don't feel the need to 'possess' him and own him. I figure, this is who he is, he loves women. I can accept it, or leave.

did he have any kids =: His kids are grown, 24, 26.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: I have never met her, no.

did you ever contact his wife = : I would never contact her.

spend a lot of money on you =: No, nothing like that.

what did he promise you =: Nothing. He told me he would like to be my friend and lover for a long time. I feel we will engage in a long-term affair as long as our feelings remain good for each other.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: No, I don't know that we would succeed at a marriage, even. Or anything to structured and conventional. I am satisfied w/ just the affair.

are you still in contact with him = : yes

did you have an abortion or a child =: He's had a vasectomy.

did you date others =: I still consider myself single. I have seen other men, yes.

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : Keep it in perspective. Be careful of whom you choose as your affair. Be prepared to be alone and unable to reach him sometimes. Take it for what it is, as long as it is enjoyable.

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: Communicate with him. He's lonely and just wants to feel alive, emotionally intimate, accepted, and have a passionate lover and a best friend.

why do you tnink men have affairs =: A passionate lover and someone to confide in and trust. Someone to nuture his spirit.

did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: no, never.

where how often regularly =: We meet randomly, depending on his work schedule and mine. The very first encounter we had was in the elevator at the college! Now, we meet at my house, every few weeks or so.

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: I've told a few friends. Some support me and others don't say much. I am honest. I say he makes me feel secure and happy and that I am realisitc about what the relationship is.

what did you learn =: I would say I am still learning...mostly, I've learned to be vulnerable and open up to this man and allow him to care for me.
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Famous INFPs

2009-07-07T21:27:00.000-07:00

HomerVirgil
Mary the Blessed Virgin
St. John
St. Luke
William Shakespeare
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
A. A. Milne
Laura Ingalls Wilder
Helen Keller
Carl Rogers
Fred Rogers
Dick Clark
Donna Reed
Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis
Neil Diamond
Tom Brokaw
James Herriot
Annie Dillard
James Taylor
Julia Roberts
Scott Bakula
Terri Gross
Amy Tan
John F. Kennedy, Jr.
Lisa Kudrow
Fred Savage

The Sympathetic Other Woman Survey

2009-07-07T00:18:00.000-07:00

age =: 33

name for married lover: Lucky

make up a name for you: candy

how did your relationship get started =: We met at work. He had been giving me looks for a while, but didn't ask me out until November. I guess they were on a "break". He had moved out, and was very attentive. We began to spend time together. Then he told me he was getting back together with his ex. After 2 weeks he was back at my office door.

how long did it last =: Its been 7 months

how did it end =: It stops and starts, depending on how freaked he is, or how frustrated I am with the lies.

would you do it again = : Ask me in a year.

never done this before =: No. I know he's been divorced twice because he can't stay faithful. Unfortunately, we have the common connection of compulsive sexual behavior. I could never tae him to meet my family anyway, but its annoying to be so restricted on when I can and cant see him. He claims he loves her, but that I provide him experiences he's always dreamed of. Neither of us seems to be ble to walk away, no matter how much we drive each other crazy. Its a big mess.

did he have any kids =: He has 2 with his ex wife (who, technically is stll his wife...)plus her older son. His fiancee has a daughter, who he refers to as "our" daughter, but the rumor mill at work says shes not actually his. Hard to know.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: Never met her. Read her myspace blogs out of curiosity.

did you ever contact his wife = : haven't as of now, but I might...

spend a lot of money on you =: He doesn't really have any money, and i have family money. Hes bought dinner or little things, but not much.

what did he promise you =: orgasms and the excitement of messing around at work.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: He's so not a man I could introduce to my family. He has no money, no future and is very immature. But in the back of my mind, I guess there are feelings I don't want to admit.

are you still in contact with him = : yes

did you have an abortion or a child =: no

did you date others =: I wish I could.

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : Run away. Its not worth the frustration and the guilt.

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: Cheaters don't change. Especially without therapy.

why do you tnink men have affairs =: he and I bonded of common sexual addicton. Men cheat when they feel entitled to. It goes along with a self-centered and immature view of the world.
did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: yes

where how often regularly =: work, almost daily at times. Sometimes we go a few weeks without talking but he always comes back.

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: My friends, a few of them. None of them judged me, but they hate to see me unhappy or frustrated.

what did you learn =: I think I am learning to admit that I am unble to control my compulsive sexual behavior, and have recently returned to therapy. I know I am not in control of myself around men, some men, and I have to make changes to find better men and better relationships.
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Sun conjunct Pluto

2009-07-06T10:39:00.000-07:00

"Michael Jackson, as I’ve noted earlier, was a Sun conjunct Pluto Virgo. Unless given almost shamanic-like life training, Sun Pluto individuals approach existence from an impetus that most of us can barely fathom. [emphasis added] And if we can’t understand it, imagine what it must be like for them to actually live it."

Since I have Sun/Pluto I had to laugh!! Life on the edge, you know.

This is an excerpt from an article by http://www.astroinquiry.com/2009/07/michaels-mad-dream-a-pluto-maniacal-mutation/ Frederick Woodruff.

Do you have Sun/Pluto? What do you think of this description?

The OTher Woman

2009-07-06T00:54:00.000-07:00

I notice in the Other Woman surveys, the OW never asks him to get a divorce. What's up with that?

The Sympathetic "Other Woman's" Survey

2009-07-06T00:49:00.000-07:00

age =: 37

name for married lover: Javion

make up a name for you: Jennifer

how did your relationship get started =: I was married and so was Javion. Javion pursued me for years, flirting constantly but not to outrageously, until I finally divorced. I was always attracted to him but did not give in until after I was separated from my husband.

how long did it last =: So far it has lasted 2 years 8 months.

how did it end =: It is close but has not ended yet

would you do it again = : Yes. I truly love him.

never done this before =: No, he never told me he had not been unfaithful. However, our relationship was a first for him...a long term relationship outside the marriage had not occured before.

did he have any kids =: At this time he has 2 kids 6 and 2. He does feel responsible and wants to be a present father for the kids.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: Yes I knew his wife.

did you ever contact his wife = : I have never given his wife any details about our relationship. And would not because that would hurt him.

spend a lot of money on you =: No. I was able to support myself. He bought me gifts, and helped me out in small amounts if I needed it, but I did the same for him.

what did he promise you =: That he loved me. That he didn't love her. That he wanted to be with me. That he wished he could leave, and if he ever did he would be with me.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: I wanted both, but I never pressed him to get divorced. He is still married.

are you still in contact with him = : Yes

did you have an abortion or a child =: No, but we tried.

did you date others =: Yes. In the beginning it was to cover up the affair. Later it has been to continue to live my life, and not let it be only about him.

what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : Don't do it. It is full of pain and heartache. Find a single man who will fulfill your needs. He will never leave his wife.
what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: Don't take out all your anger on the other woman. She probably did not pursue your husband. Instead, consider that maybe if some of the things your husband is telling you sound a little far fetched and distant from the truth, they probably are. Men in this situation will usually say anything and blame everything on the other woman so they don't lose their wives.

why do you tnink men have affairs =: His marriage was missing excitement, love and a connection. We have a deep, strong bond that has always been there and remains to this day....so much so that both of us have tried to end it with the other, but we are simply unable to do so.
did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: Yes constantly. I don't want to break up his family, even though I love him with all of my heart.

where how often regularly =: We met in various places around the town we lived in, my house, his house (1 time) motels, hotels. Anywhere we could see each other. For the first 2 years we met often, at least one or two times a week. It is long distance now and is more like one or two times a year.

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: I have told a few people. They have told me it will not end well. I am worth more. I need to find someone who can be with me.

what did you learn =: I began the relationship thinking that we could explore our mutual strong attraction for each other and have some fun. However, it turned out quickly that I realized the years of friendship and attraction had turned to love. It is really like playing with fire.

It's the Fourth

2009-07-04T17:44:00.001-07:00

MIchael Jackson's Horoscope

2009-07-03T01:20:00.000-07:00

Lunar Eclipse: 9 Feb 2009 20Leo59
Lunar Eclipse: 7 Jul 2009 15Cap24

One reason for so many deaths (including Michael Jackson's') is to look at the elipses. The most recent have been in Cancer and Capricorn, esoterically the way in to and out of life.

The July 7 eclipse foreshadowed MJ's death. Look at how it sits across his Midheaven and IC. Death is often predicted from preceding eclipse activity.

I find it more interesting to talk about MJ's death in terms of his abusive childhood and pataterns thaat brings up. His untimely death has stirred up my most vulnerable clients a they identify with the fragile hold MJ had on reality. I've recently become interested in spreading the word about Alice Miller's work on abused children. Her conclusion is that "the body never lies" and that abused children face years of agonizing health problems and breakdowns, even early death, because ... the body remembers everything. Unless and it's a big UNLESS there is intervention by an "enlightened witness" to the child's suffering at the time or later.

Despite having Mars and Aries Rising in this rectified chart, MJ is extremely sensitive as his Sun and Moon are in the 6th and 12th houses, Virgo and Pisces. Saturn in the 8th indicates a strong possibility of sexual abuse probably a grandparent or older male relative, even an older brother.

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Abused children become hypervigilant. Many are not safe anywhere least of all their own beds. Hypervigilance puts an extra strain on the nervous system that can lead to lifelong auto immune issues, bouts of CFS and fibromyalgia, to name a few high stress conditions.

Michael -- whatever else he was trying to do -- was always only trying to relax.

The role of the enlightened witness in keeping an abused child intact is so critical it cannot be overemphasized. This is NOT a traditional therapist but someone with special training and qualities. Learn more ....

If you suffered as a child and continue to have physical conditions with a strong emotional ocmponent (multiple car accidents, adrenal fatigue agoraphobia ...), here's the best enlightened witness I could ever reommend. Kathleen Rick does this type of healing work via phone.

If you were abused as a child, my point is, it won't just "go away". You have to do something. It's never too late. If you have depression, fatigue or ongoing bouts of poor health, contact Kathleen Rick today. Please tell her Nancy sent you!

The "Sympathetic" Other Woman Survey

2009-07-02T11:48:00.000-07:00

age =: 50

name for married lover: M

make up a name for you: C

how did your relationship get started =: He was my boss. We worked together for a couple of years. When it was 4 o'clock and I didn't want to start a new project, I'd go into his office and just start asking questions, chatting. We'd sit and talk for a long time. There was just a wonderful connection.

how long did it last =: After 25 years, we still have a relationship. It's been an on-off relationship.

how did it end =: On-going.

would you do it again = : Yes! He has been a unbelievable presence in my life. He's my mentor, has always believed in my abilities even when I didn't. No one, no one knows me as well as he does.

never done this before =: No.

did he have any kids =: Yes. He has kids. They were in elementary school. I think he's always felt an obligation to his family. He married young. They grew apart very early. But he feels a devotion to being there for them.

did you know his wife before or gret to know her?: Yes. Since I worked for him, I would talk to her on the phone, see her at parties.

spend a lot of money on you =: He paid my expenses to meet him in other cities. Wonderful meals, finest wines, great locations, fabulous hotels, spa treatments. It was always about pampering, feeling special. Small gifts here and there. Not many. He contributed to my rent for a bit in the beginning. I've always liked being independent. The relationship has always been on my terms.

what did he promise you =: He didn't make any promises for anything.

did you want to marry him or just have the affair =: Never asked him to divorce his wife. I knew he wouldn't.

are you still in contact with him = : Yes.

did you have an abortion or a child =: No. But he told me once, very recently, at one point he wondered what our children would've looked like.

did you date others =: Yes. But when I was in a serious relationship, whether married or in a long-term relationship, I would never sleep with him. And we didn't speak very often.
what advice would you give someone who is considering an affair? = : You have to be very honest with yourself about the reality of the relationship. If he says he's going to leave his wife for you, that's fine. But don't bank on it. Continue with your own life. Don't put anything on hold for him.

what advice would you give a wife whose husband was having an affair =: If he's done it once, he'll do it again. But if you really want to make it work, seek counseling. And don't let him back in until he agrees to it. Otherwise, you won't really know the truth why it happened. But it's something deep seated.

why do you tnink men have affairs =: My lover is very high powered. He has people wanting a piece of him no matter where he goes. Including his wife. When he's with me, he can talk to me about things he doesn't talk about with anyone else, including his wife. His true desires, his true feelings. He could never say that he wants to get away from it all. Nor could he really get away and leave it behind. He has such enormous responsibilities to his family, his company, his shareholders. He knows it's not possible right now. I'm his escape. For a night or two, I bring balance into his life and he brings balance into mine.

did you ever feel guilty about what you were doing -: Every now and then.

where how often regularly =: My apartment. Hotels. New York, DC, Puerto Rico, Europe. Well, when we worked together, we saw each other every day. We actually would be intimate once or twice a month. But now that we're in different states, it's random, whenever he has business here. But when I was married, we didn't have any contact. After my marriage ended, we reconnected. During a couple of long-term relationships that I had, we didn't have as much contact. We spoke periodically, met for dinner or drinks once or twice, but never had sex.

did you tel did you tell friends or relatives =: I've told a couple of my close friends. One of my sister-in-laws. They were very non-judgmental about it.

what did you learn =: This man was definitely meant to be in my life. I've never regretted. I don't like to use the term soulmate because that doesn't always have a good connotation. But we were together in this life for a reason. For him, I believe his marital relationship in this lifetime was about devotion and service to others but not his devotion to himself and his desires. I'm here to fill that void. For my lifetime, he opened up the world of wealth, knowledge and possibilities. An appreciation of the finer things in life. Not just material, but the simple beauty and intelligence in my surroundings and, most importantly, myself.
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Filibuster

2009-07-01T13:04:00.000-07:00

Filibuster:

From Dutch word "vrijbuiter" meaning "pirate". An attempt to block or delay Senate action on a bill or other matter by debating it at length, by offering numerous procedural motions, or by any other delaying or obstructive actions .

quoted from BBC News ... who knew?

SEC Dinner

2009-06-29T17:57:00.001-07:00

The SEC Dinner was marvelous. They opened with a quote from my father, Ray Garrett, Jr., 19th Chairman of the SEC. Mary Shapiro spoke. They closed with an explanation that the Historical Society, events like this and the archives (online) were all a result of Ray's vision.

Please see album "SEC Dinner" on facebook.

JoAnne, Johnnie and VIrginia in the Backyard

2009-06-29T17:55:00.000-07:00

Family

2009-06-21T12:58:00.000-07:00

Mother (far left). Uncle John, Aunt Jo Ann, Susan and I with graandparents who raised us while father was a way in the war. Happy Father's Day to my first father, John Trimble Hale.

Iran's FIrst Saturn Return - Iran's Horoscope

2009-06-21T07:50:00.001-07:00

[quoted from astrologywweekly in part]

"As for the correct natal horoscope for Iran, I believe that it should be set for May 1501 when Ismail I was proclaimed Shah of Azerbaidjan and later (1502) of entire Iran. I couldn't find the exact date of the proclamation. From what I've read, it seems that May 1501 represents the beginning of the modern state of Shi'a Islamic Republic of Iran.

"Some astrologers claim that the current chart for Iran should be set for the return of Ayatollah Khomeini on February 1, 1979, and the start of the current form of government, the Islamic Republic, but this is only a secondary chart, a moment in history. The Islamic Iranian state existed long before that moment.

"Others support the chart for the moment the Islamic Republic of Iran was proclaimed: on 1 April 1979, Ayatollah Khomeini proclaimed the birth of the Islamic Republic sometime after two in the afternoon and before three by many accounts.

...

"In the mean time, here's the chart for the return of Ayatollah Khomeini on February 1, 1979, 9:30 am -03:30, Tehran." [end quote]

Original source: astrologyweekly.com [not my scholarship]

My comments: With that beautiful Virgo 6th house and gorgeous Aquarian 11th house, these people could really show the world how to have a revolution.

This is the country's first Saturn Return from the Ayatollah chart.

Happy Father's Day - Ray Garrett, Jr.

2009-06-20T23:11:00.000-07:00

Mike Tyson's Birth Chart

2009-06-15T23:37:00.000-07:00

Birth time unknown .... check bck for analysis.

Donation Based Readings by Ingrid!

2009-06-15T17:32:00.000-07:00

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The Power of Scorpios

2009-06-14T00:02:00.001-07:00

I never really understood why the eagle is the perfect symbol for the advanced Scorpio til I saw this powerpoint presentation. There's a great article on Scorpios at Zodiac Traits.

Copy and paste if the link doesn't work: www.bemyastrologer.com/Rebirth_of_the_Eagle.pps

Nancy is One Degreee from Michelle and Barack

2009-06-13T23:53:00.000-07:00

You know Kevin Bacon and his degrees? I finally found a friend who knows the Obamas personally. I knew it had to happen.

This photo shows Barack with his mother, grandfather and half sis. [fair use from wiki]

Susan Boyle's Astrology Chart

2009-06-05T19:41:00.000-07:00

art from Wikipedia Commons

With her Saturn in Capricorn in the 8th house, worldly power is what Susan most wants and most fears. If you're over 30 you know what it's like when you get what you "always wanted" - it's a kind of curse. Susan is showing the kind of anxiety attached to Saturn issue.

Susan is a great spirited Aries, Jupiter, 9th and 11th house sort of gal whose first song about Dreams touched a universal chord in all of us.

These planets and houses explain that Susan would stay out of the public eye til late in life butmight be catipulted to fame.

Is she really a virgin? More likely she is the victim of sexual abuse with Saturn in the 8th. She would avoid sex until she had all the power .

Susan's South Node is in the 10th house which also has encouraged her to stay at home or close to home and work on her own identity, getting secure within herself before reaching for the stars.

It it's time for Susan to get past her deep roooted Saturnine fears, that Mars in Cancer on the horizon could make her very career oriented and of course we know what she does with a crowd (Cancer Rising).

As for her supposed crush on Piers ... well, heck, who doesn't have a crush on Piers? !

In case you live under a rock, Susan Boyle is the runner up on Briton's Got Talent this season. She has become an absolute phenomenon and I love her lots. Cancer Rising is killer for an audience - her vulnerability is capturing hearts all over the internet and around the wo rld. One you tube video showed 66,000,000 hits.

Horary and Electional Astrology by Nina Holly

2009-06-05T18:56:00.000-07:00

Nina Holly, our favorite horary and electional astrologer, is back at her desk! Please visit Gryphon Astrology.

Horary astrology is a specialty that answers a yes or no question based on time.

Electional astrology helps you pick a weddding date or date for surgery (for example).

Quality Introverts Site

2009-06-05T12:33:00.000-07:00

DH writes ... "I'm amazed and delighted by your introvert site - makes me feel almost normal."

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Soup Plantation Coupons

2009-06-04T11:59:00.000-07:00

http://www.souplantation.com/emails/June_Coupons.pdf
Try changing Jjune to another month if you get here after June.

Ingrid, the Houston Psychic

2009-06-03T11:05:00.000-07:00

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Visit the great Houston psychic healer. INGRID the Magnificent. I am happy to recommend Ingrid for readings and distant REIKE energy healing.

I'd Love to be Your Astrologer

2009-06-02T23:54:00.000-07:00

Kris and Adam ... Both are Winners

2009-06-02T21:02:00.000-07:00

An Astrologer Explains about Kris and Adam

This article contains the birth chart of Adam Lambert and the birth chart of Kris Allen. Click to enlarge.

The finale of American Idol’s eighth season was a complete surprise to most of us as the clearly more talented contestant with greater star quality, Adam Lambert, was upended in the final vote by wholesome almost demure and, yes, also very talented Kris Allen.

How could this happen? An astrologer knows.

First, the vote occurred during Mercury Retrograde, a time when there are surprise reversals and switched endings. Mercury goes retrograde (backwards from our perspective here on earth) for several weeks three different times each year. It was during a Mercury Retrograde on November 7, 2000 that the American people went to the polls in the tightest presidential race since 1876. The Supreme Court decided the winner, George W. Bush, after Mercury went direct.

But it's more than that. Pluto, the planet of global transformation, has just switched signs for the first time in 15 years, bringing very deep changes in our image of males. Pluto is now transiting Capricorn, the sign of the father. Remember this combination. It will be big in the next decade. Saturn-ruled Capricorn meets Pluto which rules Scorpio. Any combination of these energies will feature subtly in far-reaching changes on the planet.

With his wicked Goth attire, Adam Lambert represents the dark father (Darth Vader), while Kris plays the perfect wholesome Ward Cleaver (of “Beaver” fame) foil. Adam quoted acid rock star Jimi Hendrix for inspiration. Kris quoted Vince Lombardi, a popular 1950s football coach. With Pluto entering Capricorn we all are going to have to deal collectively with the presence of dark, mysterious chthonic male energy, but since this year’s crown was decided during a retrograde, it’s like we stood up and said, at lest 500,000 + 1 times, “No! Not just yet!”

Kris' demeaning manner was apparent when he stuttered at accepting his award and title, seeming to not even recognize the money and power (Capricorn ruled) that comes with it.

Movie stars like Brad Pitt are helping us redefine our image of men and especially fatherhood. It doesn’t have to be either/or like Adam or Kris.

But wait! There's another twist. Zodiac sign traits are so revealing of the mysteries of the universe. Both finalists' charts are here. Without the exact time of birth, the charts are set for noon and the houses and Rising Signs are not known.

Ironically sweet, wholesome looking Kris reveals a deep connection to the zodiac sign traits of Pluto because his South Moon Node is in Scorpio the sign ruled by Pluto. Before age 30, a person is most like their South Moon Node. Kris Allen also has Saturn in Scorpio. Wait a minute! Who's the real Darth Vader? Kris is acting ingenuous and innocent -- like many with prominent Scorpio zodiac traits, but he is incredibly powerful and materialistic. It's all an act.

And there's another twist. Adam's "darkness" is all an act, too. Adam Lambert has a chart full of the zodiac sign traits of an open, honest, ethical, and high-minded idealist: Sagittarius, Aquarius, and the cardinal signs of Aries, Libra and Capricorn. His Goth tough guy is a mask.

Adam reveals the Pluto/Capricorn signature because he has Saturn and Pluto in tight conjunction with his South Node in Capricorn.

Adam and Kris herald the entry of Pluto into Capricorn like mirror twins. Adam came into the collective on the wave length of the Jupiter/Chiron/Neptune conjunction which occurred this week but yields in weight to Pluto's transit of Capricorn which has more long lasting impact for our evolution.

Would you rather date Kris or Adam? To learn more about the signs, visit Zodiac Sign Traits.